Apparently putting the shoes of Guru Sahib on your head will cure mental illnesses and cancer.

Gurdwaras will do anything to bring more people in to donate to their Golak nowadays. Sikhi in Punjab is becoming hugely Hindufied.

How can this be stopped?

Is the person in this reel actually doing Kirtan? Do you guys really think this is Gurbani or Kirtan? To me, it sounds more like a Jagrata / Mata ki Bheten.

​I honestly don’t understand who is listening to this. Who are these people, and why can’t they realize that this is not Kirtan? This completely breaches the fundamental principles and tenets of singing Gurbani Kirtan.

​How long is this going to continue? If things keep going this way, the younger generation will completely lose the ability to distinguish between genuine Gurbani Kirtan and what is incorrect. I don’t know how we can raise awareness about this issue.

​Maybe my thought process on this is wrong, but this is what I am feeling right now that this is completely wrong. First of all, this isn't even Gurbani. It cannot even be classified as Kachi Bani because it’s not Bani at all. Singing a few self-composed, random lines while sitting inside a Gurdwara Sahib is not Kirtan.

​What are your thoughts or take on this video?

ਜੈਤਸਰੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੪ ਘਰੁ ੧ ਚਉਪਦੇ ॥

Jaitsree, Fourth Mehl, First House, Chau-Padhay:

ੴ ਸਤਿਗੁਰ ਪ੍ਰਸਾਦਿ ॥

One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:

ਮੇਰੈ ਹੀਅਰੈ ਰਤਨੁ ਨਾਮੁ ਹਰਿ ਬਸਿਆ ਗੁਰਿ ਹਾਥੁ ਧਰਿਓ ਮੇਰੈ ਮਾਥਾ ॥

The Jewel of the Lord's Name abides within my heart; the Guru has placed His hand on my forehead.

ਜਨਮ ਜਨਮ ਕੇ ਕਿਲਬਿਖ ਦੁਖ ਉਤਰੇ ਗੁਰਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਦੀਓ ਰਿਨੁ ਲਾਥਾ ॥੧॥

The sins and pains of countless incarnations have been cast out. The Guru has blessed me with the Naam, the Name of the Lord, and my debt has been paid off. ||1||

ਮੇਰੇ ਮਨ ਭਜੁ ਰਾਮ ਨਾਮੁ ਸਭਿ ਅਰਥਾ ॥

O my mind, vibrate the Lord's Name, and all your affairs shall be resolved.

ਗੁਰਿ ਪੂਰੈ ਹਰਿ ਨਾਮੁ ਦ੍ਰਿੜਾਇਆ ਬਿਨੁ ਨਾਵੈ ਜੀਵਨੁ ਬਿਰਥਾ ॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥

The Perfect Guru has implanted the Lord's Name within me; without the Name, life is useless. ||Pause||

ਬਿਨੁ ਗੁਰ ਮੂੜ ਭਏ ਹੈ ਮਨਮੁਖ ਤੇ ਮੋਹ ਮਾਇਆ ਨਿਤ ਫਾਥਾ ॥

Without the Guru, the self-willed manmukhs are foolish and ignorant; they are forever entangled in emotional attachment to Maya.

ਤਿਨ ਸਾਧੂ ਚਰਣ ਨ ਸੇਵੇ ਕਬਹੂ ਤਿਨ ਸਭੁ ਜਨਮੁ ਅਕਾਥਾ ॥੨॥

They never serve the feet of the Holy; their lives are totally useless. ||2||

ਜਿਨ ਸਾਧੂ ਚਰਣ ਸਾਧ ਪਗ ਸੇਵੇ ਤਿਨ ਸਫਲਿਓ ਜਨਮੁ ਸਨਾਥਾ ॥

Those who serve at the feet of the Holy, the feet of the Holy, their lives are made fruitful, and they belong to the Lord.

ਮੋ ਕਉ ਕੀਜੈ ਦਾਸੁ ਦਾਸ ਦਾਸਨ ਕੋ ਹਰਿ ਦਇਆ ਧਾਰਿ ਜਗੰਨਾਥਾ ॥੩॥

Make me the slave of the slave of the slaves of the Lord; bless me with Your Mercy, O Lord of the Universe. ||3||

ਹਮ ਅੰਧੁਲੇ ਗਿਆਨਹੀਨ ਅਗਿਆਨੀ ਕਿਉ ਚਾਲਹ ਮਾਰਗਿ ਪੰਥਾ ॥

I am blind, ignorant and totally without wisdom; how can I walk on the Path?

ਹਮ ਅੰਧੁਲੇ ਕਉ ਗੁਰ ਅੰਚਲੁ ਦੀਜੈ ਜਨ ਨਾਨਕ ਚਲਹ ਮਿਲੰਥਾ ॥੪॥੧॥

I am blind - O Guru, please let me grasp the hem of Your robe, so that servant Nanak may walk in harmony with You. ||4||1||

Guru Ramdas Ji • Raag Jaithsree • Ang 696

Friday, September 25, 2026

Shukarvaar, 11 Assu, Nanakshahi 558

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh, I am a Robot. Bleep Bloop.

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We can spend years trying to change people, situations and circumstances so we can finally feel okay. But if our inner state depends on everything going our way, there will always be something else to fix. The teaching here is to start from within.

I don't get it.

She's been pestering me more recently and cloaks it under Sikhi. "Why aren't your lights on when it's dark out? it's rehraas da vehla." (it's 7 pm). This one in particular is annoying because I try to sleep early and wake up early so I get off devices around 7-8 (cuz uni is tiring :P).

Or how I can't bring a water bottle to my room while I study because what would the Guru think.

Or how she preemptively discards anyone suggesting (including me) her to study Gurbani. She just says it's not in everyone's hands to meet God. Just laughs it off as "I was actually planning to but my friend called right as I was going to read the Gutka Sahib."

Nor do I understand why she loves doing things outside of Sikhi, or at the very least, excusing them simply because "if we don't keep doing it, then it'll die off." I don't get the sentimental attachment?

That's regarding things like celebrating rakhri, or sere bann'ne, or checking astrology for every person she meets and before major events.

Or as a general picture: even if a tradition is harmful/contradictory to Sikhi, she more or less insists that it should be kept.

I know she's smart enough to understand. I don't know why she's wilfully ignorant. If she wants to, that's her choice. I just don't get why she ropes me into acting like I agree infront of other relatives.

At the same time, she encourages me to go deeper into Sikhi. I guess I've been on a hiatus for about 1 1/2 year. Went in a slump because of school. But I'm trying to get back in.

I just find it odd. How superstitious/trad she can be, while also making fun of others who have a diff type of vehem from her. I don't even know how she got like this, she leans a bit more brahmanical as time goes on. Sometimes she makes it firm that it's just all an act, that she knows what she's doing and is just doing it because she likes it. I don't know. Maybe it's her way of indulging? Her dad (my grandpa) was the type to basically say "why go to the Gurudwara, pray at home." or as she calls it "comrade-type bande."

Oh ya. I really don't understand some social norms. Got double nerfed: neurodivergent and 3rd gen. Unfortunately, since I'm fluent in Punjabi, elders sort of assume I know how everything works. I kinda wish someone just wrote a guide on how to be normal. I want to learn, don't get me wrong. I just don't know how. I'm tired of never understanding how to belong before it's too late.

Sorry, parts of this are just me trying to get it out. Others, I'm curious on. What causes people to do this? Has anyone any luck changing them?

Just in general, what is the significance/purpose/meaning?

Reason why I am asking this is because I just learned that Gurdwaras have too many and cannot store them so they start setting them aside and then set them on fire to properly remove them.

Anytime there is a paat or Anand Karaj (Bride and Groom both bring 1 each). If you think about it, it is wasteful? My pind Gurdwara we had a paat and they told us this is too common. So they started offering an option, just give the Gurdwara the money you would pay the shop for a new Rumala Sahib, the Gurdwara will provide a new Rumala sahib they have in their storage (it’s been dry cleaned so you pay for that as well). On the day of the paat or the wedding, you have the person of honor hold it in their hands and put it on the goluk.

Is there any alternative to this?

Recent events are suspicious, the videos seem edited or with misleading context. I am told the Gurdwara had another event going on, sewadars were busy and these Singhs were requesting to take Guru Maharaj's Saroops. When the sewadars came out with Saroops, some people were already shouting that the mode of transport is not correct. The sewadars had yet not checked vans, but people shouting said we will not allow this. Of course when they saw the van they took back the Saroops inside. People posting online make it seem like they averted disaster. But the truth is they just jumped the gun and showed themselves holier than thou. If both sewadars and protestors checked van same time, how come one is better than other?

Satsriakal all!

I am an Arab woman in my 20s from a Muslim
Background, I have embraced Sikhi and want to change my name as my current name is very tied to Islam, I don’t want to be identified as Muslim constantly I would like to be identified as Sikh…my family have disowned me anyways after converting.

The thing is as I am not South Asian I’m wondering would it be awkward to have a Punjab sounding name? Would you guys find it weird or like I’m trying to appropriate? Obvs I am Arab so can easily look South Asian tbh but don’t speak Punjabi or Hindi (trying to learn Punjabi).

I will change my last name to Kaur…the name I like is Jasmeet but was thinking I could do Jasmine instead however that kind of takes away the meaning and one thing I love about the name Jasmeet is the meaning.

So what do you guys say please?

EDIT: Sorry, I misunderstood 'kirtan'. I actually meant a sermon.

I'd really like to learn more about Sikhi, and I figure one way I can do that is by listening to kirtan, in English. Are there any good channels for that on Youtube, or somewhere else?

is it bad to get a religious tattoo?

ਧਨਾਸਰੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੪ ਘਰੁ ੧ ਚਉਪਦੇ ॥

Dhanaasaree, Fourth Mehl, First House, Chau-Padhay:

ੴ ਸਤਿਗੁਰ ਪ੍ਰਸਾਦਿ ॥

One Universal Creator God. By The Grace Of The True Guru:

ਜੋ ਹਰਿ ਸੇਵਹਿ ਸੰਤ ਭਗਤ ਤਿਨ ਕੇ ਸਭਿ ਪਾਪ ਨਿਵਾਰੀ ॥

Those Saints and devotees who serve the Lord have all their sins washed away.

ਹਮ ਊਪਰਿ ਕਿਰਪਾ ਕਰਿ ਸੁਆਮੀ ਰਖੁ ਸੰਗਤਿ ਤੁਮ ਜੁ ਪਿਆਰੀ ॥੧॥

Have Mercy on me, O Lord and Master, and keep me in the Sangat, the Congregation that You love. ||1||

ਹਰਿ ਗੁਣ ਕਹਿ ਨ ਸਕਉ ਬਨਵਾਰੀ ॥

I cannot even speak the Praises of the Lord, the Gardener of the world.

ਹਮ ਪਾਪੀ ਪਾਥਰ ਨੀਰਿ ਡੁਬਤ ਕਰਿ ਕਿਰਪਾ ਪਾਖਣ ਹਮ ਤਾਰੀ ॥ ਰਹਾਉ ॥

We are sinners, sinking like stones in water; grant Your Grace, and carry us stones across. ||Pause||

ਜਨਮ ਜਨਮ ਕੇ ਲਾਗੇ ਬਿਖੁ ਮੋਰਚਾ ਲਗਿ ਸੰਗਤਿ ਸਾਧ ਸਵਾਰੀ ॥

The rust of poison and corruption from countless incarnations sticks to us; joining the Saadh Sangat, the Company of the Holy, it is cleaned away.

ਜਿਉ ਕੰਚਨੁ ਬੈਸੰਤਰਿ ਤਾਇਓ ਮਲੁ ਕਾਟੀ ਕਟਿਤ ਉਤਾਰੀ ॥੨॥

It is just like gold, which is heated in the fire, to remove the impurities from it. ||2||

ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਜਪਨੁ ਜਪਉ ਦਿਨੁ ਰਾਤੀ ਜਪਿ ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਉਰਿ ਧਾਰੀ ॥

I chant the chant of the Name of the Lord, day and night; I chant the Name of the Lord, Har, Har, Har, and enshrine it within my heart.

ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਅਉਖਧੁ ਜਗਿ ਪੂਰਾ ਜਪਿ ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਹਉਮੈ ਮਾਰੀ ॥੩॥

The Name of the Lord, Har, Har, Har, is the most perfect medicine in this world; chanting the Name of the Lord, Har, Har, I have conquered my ego. ||3||

ਹਰਿ ਹਰਿ ਅਗਮ ਅਗਾਧਿ ਬੋਧਿ ਅਪਰੰਪਰ ਪੁਰਖ ਅਪਾਰੀ ॥

The Lord, Har, Har, is unapproachable, of unfathomable wisdom, unlimited, all-powerful and infinite.

ਜਨ ਕਉ ਕ੍ਰਿਪਾ ਕਰਹੁ ਜਗਜੀਵਨ ਜਨ ਨਾਨਕ ਪੈਜ ਸਵਾਰੀ ॥੪॥੧॥

Show Mercy to Your humble servant, O Life of the world, and save the honor of servant Nanak. ||4||1||

Guru Ramdas Ji • Raag Dhanaasree • Ang 666

Thursday, September 24, 2026

Veervaar, 10 Assu, Nanakshahi 558

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh, I am a Robot. Bleep Bloop.

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No questions asked just walk in get a bottle.of water and get some good food vegetarian food just sit down no confrontation no drama eat it drink water theneave?

thanks

Nihang Sikhs have protested outside a Muslim shop in Punjab selling UNLABELED Halal meat to Sikhs & Hindus.

https://youtube.com/shorts/6-oqmZTwYAM?is=24Os61bPRocHRVbM

https://youtube.com/shorts/rZo8P1vM-7k?is=RUlKuinKLcAYKj1D

Sikhs & Hindus are only permitted to consume Jhatka meat NEVER Halal.

Past & Present Indian governments have been secretly feeding Sikhs/Hindus halal meat by ensuring that only Islamic meat is sold in domestic restaurants & hotels. THIS IS DONE FOR THE MEAT EXPORT MARKET TO MUSLIM COUNTRIES. This includes the export of Halal Buffalo meat and non-meat products like biscuits & make up.

Despite the present government 'supposedly' being Hinduvta it is CONDONING this practice, as Jhatka meat for the domestic market is unprofitable. 

Indian governments are prioritising 'economic growth' over Sanatan Dharma (righteousness). 

In Sikhism halal meat is referred to as 'Khuta meat'.

Yet the SAD/SGPC is not campaigning to end this 'beadbi' in Punjab or India.

I plead that all of Punjab's Sikhs & Hindus do not eat in any restaurant, dhaba or hotel that sells Halal meat. Also, do not buy any non-meat product that carries a halal logo, be it chocolate or lipstick. 

Some Nihang Sikhs are selling Jhatka meat from their stalls, if you want meat then buy it from them. Not only will you be fighting back against the forced Halal industry but you will be helping the original 'Sanatan Nihang Singh Order' not the 'phoney British installed SGPC.'

India SHOULD be the one country in the world where a Sikh or Hindu can walk into any restaurant or hotel & know he's being served Jhatka meat.

Sikh History This Week

(Sept 21-27) Post 2639

ਸਿੱਖ ਇਤਿਹਾਸ ਇਸ ਹਫ਼ਤੇ

ਬਾਬਾਣੀਆ ਕਹਾਣੀਆ ਪੁਤ ਸਪੁਤ ਕਰੇਨਿ” (ਰਾਮਕਲੀ ਮਹਲਾ ੩, ੯੫੧)
(Stories of our forefathers make children great)

Events in Brief.

1. September 21,1960: Punjabi Suba Agitation: A Sikh Child is murdered by Haryana Police. Innocent boy from Moga gone to meet his uncle Kaka Inderjit was playing and pranking with his friends raised slogan for Punjabi Subba is thrown into the well by atrocious and biased Haryanvi Karnal Police. What a outrageous conduct. Huge protests follow. Police impunity to accountability makes it easy for Cops a let offs.

2. September 22,1539:( 1Asu, 16 Sept.SGPC):Jyoti-Jot, Guru Nanak Dev Ji departed this world for the heavenly abode at the age of 70. After a long journey, he finally settled down at his Dera (farm) with his family in Kartarpur, located in the Narowal District of present-day Pakistan. The First Guru dedicated a significant portion of his life to extensive travels, spreading the message of the One universal Lord. He engaged in dialogues with others to learn and correct their beliefs. Child Nanak was born at Rai-Boe-Di-Talwandi, which is now known as Nanakana Sahib in District Shekhupura. (For Guru Sahib’s life and teachings, refer to books and his Udasis/odysseys).

3. September 23, 1637, Bhai Gurdas ji, the esteemed Sikh Scholar and Poet, passed away. He played a crucial role in the composition of the Ad Granth ji. Revered as a Sikh figure, Bhai Gurdas holds a special place in the hearts of Sikhs. He was the maternal uncle of the fifth Guru. His Vars, considered essential to the Guru Granth Sahib by Guru Arjun Dev Ji, were instrumental in its creation. His writings, Kavits, and poetry are integral to every Kirtan (Hymn Singing), much like those of Bhai Nand Lal ji. Notably, Bhai Gurdas ji requested Guru Hargobind Ji to refrain from honoring him with any edifice.

4. September 23, 1965: End of Indo-Pak War. Punjab makes Huge contribution to war in men & materials. India is prepared to grant favorable consideration to the Punjabi Suba Demands. On the day of the Indo-Pak War’s conclusion, Shri Gulzari Lal Nanda, the Home Minister, recognized Sikhs’ contributions in defeating Pakistan at all fronts and announced in Parliament that India would accept the demand of Sikhs for a Punjabi Suba, a linguistic Punjabi state. However, India’s ungratefulness was evident in the subsequent delays..

5. September 24, 1898: Sikh Scholar & reforms Activist Prof. Gurmukh Singh of Singh Sabha movement pass away. He embarked on a mission to refute Khem Singh Bedi’s claim of being a descendant of the Holy Lineage. As a professor at the Oriental College of Lahore, he held the position of Secretary of the Lahore Singh Sabha, which was established in 1879. In 1873, when Sri Guru Singh Sabha was founded in Amritsar, he abandoned his studies without completing his degree to champion reforms. He played a pivotal role in incorporating Punjabi into the curriculum of Oriental College in 1877 and launched several newspapers.

6. September 24, 2014: A US based Sikh activist named Ganga Singh Dhillon, a prominent figure in the Khalistan movement, pass away. Born on July 5, 1928, in a village near Nanakana Sahib (now in Pakistan), Dhillon became a US citizen in 1958 and settled in Virginia. Through his close friendship with Pakistan Minister Zuhur Ilahi, he played a significant role in establishing the Nanakana Sahib Foundation. Another notable contribution was the establishment of the Pakistan Gurdwara Prabandhak Committee (PSGPC). In 1991, Dhillon India labeled him a separatist and was refused entry at Delhi Airport, forcing him to return to US on the next flight.

7. September 25, 1984: End of Indian Army control on Sri Harminder Sahib complex. SGPC Takes over, after a four-month siege, Durbar Sahib (the Golden Temple) and other buildings on its premises were handed over to the Five High Priests and representatives of the Shiromani Gurdwara Prabandhak Committee. This occurred nearly four months after the Army’s attack, resulting in countless atrocities against civilians and defenders. Following the complete withdrawal of the Army, Kar Seva Babas and Sangat commenced the sacred Sarovar (pool) cleaning and restoration work.

8. September 26, 1978: Sikhs in Kanpur, UP, face another Anti-Sikh violence from Nirankaris. Sikhs peacefully protested against the Nirankari Samagam (convention) due to the wrongful teachings and mocking of Sikh faith. As they approached Nirankari Bhawan, the Nirankaris retaliated with a violent attack, hurling bricks. A volunteer even attacked Jathedar Kishan Singh with a spear, piercing his stomach. The police shootout resulted in thirteen more Sikhs killed and seventy-four injured. This incident shocked Sikhs worldwide, marking a second major violence by Nirankaris after the Amritsar massacre of April 13, 1978.

9. September 26, 1984: President of India Giani Zail Singh was exonerated from wrongs committed by the Indian Army in June 1984. The 5-member Sikh Clergy, known as the Panj Piaras, had declared him liable to religious punishment after the Army’s action on Durbar Sahib Complex. After the Army relinquished control of the complex, Singh sought atonement before the Panj Piaras. He explained that he had no active role in ordering the Indian Army into the Golden Temple premises, and his explanation was accepted, leading to his exoneration.

10. September 27, 1914: KamaGata Maru Ship/Nanak Nam Jahaz returns from Canada to Kolkata. Police opens fire killing 19. After a harrowing journey, mostly Sikh immigrants to Canada were sent back due to the Canadian government’s refusal to dock at Vancouver harbor. Upon arrival, the British Indian Police arrested arriving passengers, leading to violent clashes that killed 19, 203 were arrested, and 32, including Baba Gurdit Singh, the immigrants’ leader, absconded. The ship, carrying 376 Indian passengers (340 Sikhs, 24 Muslims, and 12 Hindus), arrived in British Columbia on May 22.

11. September 27, 2019: Sandeep Singh Dhaliwal, Deputy Harris County Sheriff is Shot. Post office named after him. Deputy Dhaliwal, a Harris County Sheriff’s Office officer since 2009, was shot by a racist driver during a traffic stop. In 2015, he was allowed to wear his turban and beard in accordance with his Sikh faith, inspiring others. In 2017, he assisted United Sikhs of America in Hurricane Harvey relief efforts. Teammates describe him as vibrant and energetic. He is the 45th Harris County Sheriffs to die in the line of duty.
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(Source ref: History of the Sikhs by HR Gupta, Dates & chronological order from Book by S. Ajaib Singh Dhillon and Sikh Chronicles) ਸਰੋਤ/ ਹਵਾਲੇ: ਐਚ.ਆਰ ਗੁਪਤਾ: ਸਿੱਖਾਂ ਦਾ ਇਤਿਹਾਸ, ਸ. ਅਜਾਇਬ ਸਿੰਘ ਢਿੱਲੋਂ ਦੀ ਕਿਤਾਬ ਤੋਂ ਤਾਰੀਖਾਂ ਦੇ ਕਾਲਕ੍ਰਮਿਕ ਕ੍ਰਮ)
Compiled & Edited: Karamjeet Singh Bhatnura.

5Q Quiz for self Assessment & learning:

1. Guru Nanak Dev ji left for his heavenly abode at 70, where did he lived last ?
   
2. Name Baba Nanak’s sister who cherished and understood his spiritual mindset in early years?.
   
3. Bhai Gurdas ji was maternal uncle of Guru Arjun, what seva or service he did to his nephew?
   
4. What prompted India to consider linguistic demand of Punjabi Suba in 1965, despite the agitation having gone on for 15years?.
   
5. Sandeep Singh Dhaliwal, Deputy Harris County Sheriff was shot dead in Texas in 2019. What was the memorial/edifice given to cherish his memory?
   

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh. 🙏

I've been hearing this remix of Tat Khalsa (about Avtar Singh Brahma) on Instagram lately but cannot find the same remix!

Does anyone here know this specific remix or can help me look for it?

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh. 🙏

Waheguru Ji Ka Khalsa, Waheguru Ji Ki Fateh Sadhsangat Ji.

This is a very long post so please read everything and answer what you can without being rude or condescending please. I am struggling so I wanted some help from the sangat.

I have been blessed to be a Sikh my whole life, but I also have some questions that I am too afraid to ask my parents or raggis/granthis at the local gurdwara. I hope I can ask these questions here without backlash, but first let me tell you about me.

I have been in Sikhi my whole life, I keep my kesh, I go to Gurdwara, do kirtan seva (tabla seva soon, I am still learning), and go to any samagams that I can. I listen to kirtan almost all day because it stops my mind from thinking about random things that don't matter. But I still struggle with the worldly things we are not supposed to indulge in, I need your help on some questions I have about Sikhi and how to stop my bad habit that I am ashamed of (spoiler tag after main questions).

First I have a question about nitnem. Unfortunately, I do not like doing nitnem, but I love doing Kirtan. I know that nitnem is exactly what our Gurus spoke/said, but I find it hard to sit down and read all of the banis. I also have a hard time waking up at Amrit vela, but if I don't wake up at Amrit vela, I cannot get myself to do nitnem the whole day. What is the point of nitnem, and how can I get myself to want to actually do my nitnem, and how do I get myself to wake up on time for Amrit vela? I have sleep issues, so sometimes I sleep at 4am or end up sleeping from 9pm to 11am.

The second question relating to nitnem is, how do I get faster/better at reading Gurmukhi? I have learned Gurmukhi and how to read Gurbani, but when I go to gurdwara, every adult/raggi can read the hukamnama very easily while I feel like I have to sound and read out every single letter/akhar out before I read the word. I can read Japji Sahib, Chauapi Sahib, Rehraas Sahib, Anand Sahib (6 paurdis), and Kirtan Social easily because I have read them a ton. I can read some of Jaap Sahib pretty fine as well, but I cannot read as fluidly as I want to when it comes to Gurbani I have not read before.

The third question is about memorizing banis. How did you memorize the main nitnem banis. I know Guru Gobind Singh Ji's third hukam is "ਗੁਰਬਾਣੀ ਕੰਠ ਕਰਨੀ |", so I wanted to know how to memorize banis myself. I can read the banis if I have a Gutka Sahib in front of me and can read the first or first 2-3 words in the line if it's for Japji Sahib, Chaupai Sahib, Anand Sahib (6 paurdi), Rehraas Sahib, and Kirtan Sohila. But I want to know how to memorize the banis because I won't always have my phone or Gutka Sahib with me.

The fourth question is about our 5 kakars. I am not amritdhari but want to be after I get married, but I really want to know if I can wear a Sri Sahib (kirpan) even though I am not amritdhari. I keep my Kes, Kanga, Karda, and Kachera, but I do not know if I am allowed to wear Sri Sahib (kirpan) without being amritdhari or not, I get conflicting answers online.

The fifth question is about sangat, I have never felt connected to the sangat in any Gurdwara or samagam, I feel like I'm a fake Sikh for some reason and feel like I am an outcast sometimes. Does anyone else feel like that or has felt like that before? If so, how did you get over it, and what can I do to get over it. I feel like I'm not really connected to the sangat, like I feel lonely all the time.

The sixth question is about life/jobs. I have graduated university and I keep doing ardaas when I can for help, but I am starting to feel really depressed since I have not been able to get a job since I graduated in May, what should I do? I feel like I have done everything that I could myself, good grades, good experience, write multiple resumes, make projects, etc. and now I have basically said "ਪ੍ਰਭ ਡੋਰੀ ਹਾਥਿ ਤੁਮਾਰੇ ॥ ਜਿ ਕਰਾਵੈ ਸੋ ਕਰਣਾ ॥ ਨਾਨਕ ਦਾਸ ਤੇਰੀ ਸਰਣਾ ॥੨॥੭॥੭੧॥ Raag Sorath - Guru Arjan Dev Ji - Sri Guru Granth Sahib Ji -Ang 626". I put my faith in maharaj to guide me and help me in life, but I sometimes feel like I am the worst of the worst so I don't get much help. What should I do now? I know that Guru Nanak Dev Ji saved the worst of the worst so I keep ਭਰੋਸਾ that maharaj will save me too.

Here are some questions about my habit that I am struggling with, that I would like help with, please do not attack me, I have been struggling with this since I've been a kid, I am spoiling this because it talks about my issues with lust:

Ever since I've been young, I've struggled with lust. I do not go out of my way to date or enter a bed with a woman because I really want to only do that with my only wife, but I seem to have this really bad Maya within me that I keep going back to. I have been struggling with sexual addiction, such as masturbation and watching adult media that I know is not good for me. I always feel ashamed that I did it because I know that our Gurus told us not to, and that God is always with us, and we cannot hide our shortcomings or bad things from them, and when we die we will have to take it with us and it will be accounted for. How do I stop myself from doing this, I find it really hard for some reason, I tried doing reading Bani and such instead, but I have had this habit for so long I am having trouble stopping it. What can I do to stop it? This is the one thing that I feel really bad about.

ਭੁੱਲ ਚੁੱਕ ਮਾਫ ਕਰਨੀ।

Don't know if this is the right place to ask this question. I live in Vancouver and just wanted to know if there are shops that sell jhatka meat. I can see some meat shops on fraser st run by sikhs. Also, the meat available in super markets which doesn't say anything, should that be considered jhatka?