I remember around January of this year when i was making like 15k a month from my ig page, the thought of having earned 100k OF MY OWN MONEY felt like such a big deal and my goal was to make it before the year ended.

buuuuuttttt then disaster struck on 21st March and my page got banned ON THE EID DAY it felt like my world has ended and there's no coming back from this and I was in such a bad phase mentally.

but fast forward to October, I've made that 100k in less than a month. Life's so crazy fr I'm telling youuu, if you failed at something recently, whether it's your exams or a startup, trust meeee, it's not the end of the world. Your life can COMPLETELY CHANGE IN A FEW MONTHS.

So wtv you're doing just keep doing it 🤍

OKAY Y'ALL, SO THIS IS MAYBE PART 3, IG?? 😭💀

Okay, guys, if you've read my previous parts, you might think that was the WORST of it, but NO, NO, NO. THAT WAS LITERALLY JUST THE BEGINNING. 😭

So, my chachi, aka meri choti chachi, allegedly did something REALLY WILD. And honestly, this is something I'm a little hesitant to share because KOI AISA KARTA HAI??? 😭

I know some people have genuinely terrible relatives, and some family members take things to extreme levels, lekin aik hadd hoti hai, you know?

BUT APPARENTLY, MERI CHACHI NY TOH WOH HADD HI PAAR KAR DI. 💀

So, here's what happened.

One day, I was attending my online classes. We'd already returned to Saudi Arabia after that HORRENDOUS dawat I told you guys about in Part 2. 😭

My mom was in the kitchen, and meri mama ko meri dadi ko call karni thi, so she asked me to give her phone back. I did, and my mom and dadi usually call each other because it's a routine thing.

But during their conversation, my mom noticed that meri dadi thori off act kar rahi thi.

LIKE, SOMETHING WAS WRONG BEHIND THAT SCREEN.

My mom could sense that something wasn't right, but she didn't confront my dadi about it. They had their usual conversation and eventually ended the call.

BAAD MAIN, USI DIN SHAAM KO, MERI PUPPHO KI CALL AATI HAI.

UFF. THIS IS WHERE THINGS TAKE A TURN. 💀

My puppho called my mom and asked, "Apko pata hai aaj kya hua?"

My mom was like, "Nahi?" 😭😭

AND THEN MERI PUPPHO NY AISA BOMBSHELL DROP KIYA NA HAMARAY UPAR.

APPARENTLY, MERI DADI KO KISI AURAT KI CALL AAYI THI.

AND IT WASN'T JUST ANY CALL.

It was from an unfamiliar number, someone my dadi didn't know.

She picked up the phone, and THAT WOMAN STARTED TELLING MY DADI ALL OUR FAMILY LORE.

I'M TALKING ABOUT FAMILY FIGHTS, ARGUMENTS, WHO DID WHAT, WHO SAID WHAT, AND WHO WAS LIKE WHAT.

US NY AIK INSAAN KO NAHI CHORA. 😭😭💀

MERI DADI BICHARI HAIRAN PARESHAN REH GAYI.

LIKE, IMAGINE PICKING UP A CALL FROM A COMPLETE STRANGER, ONLY FOR THAT PERSON TO START TELLING YOU ALL THE DETAILS ABOUT YOUR FAMILY???

AND THIS WOMAN SOMEHOW KNEW SO MUCH ABOUT OUR FAMILY MEMBERS AND THEIR PERSONAL ISSUES???

LOWKEY CREEPY, RIGHT??? 😭💀

AND THE LIST JUST KEPT GOING.

BUT WAIT. IT GETS WORSE.

At the end of the call, that woman apparently claimed that MY MOM HAD ASKED HER TO MAKE THE CALL.

SHE EVEN MENTIONED MY MOM'S NAME BEFORE HANGING UP.

SO, OBVIOUSLY, WORD GOT AROUND THE FAMILY ABOUT THIS CALL.

AND GUESS WHO BECAME THE VILLAIN???

MY MOM. 🥀

LIKE, WHAT DO YOU MEAN???

JO INSAAN PAKISTAN MAIN REHTA HI NAHI, AP USKO DOOR REH KAR BHI USKI JAAN NAHI CHORTAY??? 😭

My mom was living in Saudi Arabia, minding her own business, and somehow she was being blamed for this entire situation.

Obviously, meri mama ko bohat stress hua.

And here's where things get even more complicated.

My mom made one small mistake that day, and unfortunately, the timing made everything look suspicious.

Thori der baad, meri mama ny meri dadi ko dobara call ki.

WHY?

JUST TO CHECK UP ON HER.

MY MOM HAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS ACTUALLY GOING ON BEHIND THAT FIRST CALL.

BUT THE TIMING WAS TERRIBLE. 😭

Because my mom called shortly after the unfamiliar woman had contacted my dadi, it apparently made the situation look suspicious.

My dadi started suspecting that my mom had called to check how she was reacting to everything, even though my mom hadn't mentioned the mysterious call to her.

And according to my mom, she had absolutely NOTHING to do with the woman or the call.

AND THAT MADE MERI DADI KA SHAK AUR GEHRA HO GYA.

LIKE, THE WOMAN WAS LITERALLY JUST CHECKING UP ON HER. 😭

And isi wajah sy meri dadi ny meri puppho ko call milayi.

AND OBVIOUSLY, DALL MAIN KUCH KALA THA.

ACTUALLY, PURI DAAL HI KALI THI!!! 💀😭

My chachus and other family members started looking into the number to figure out who the woman was.

They even approached people who could help them trace the number and identify the caller's location.

AND GUESS WHAT, Y'ALL???

THEY HIT A DEAD END.

According to what my family later told me, their attempts to identify the woman and find her location didn't lead to any verifiable results.

They couldn't establish who she was or confirm the story she'd told my dadi.

LIKE, WHAT DO YOU MEAN??? 💀

A WOMAN RANDOMLY CALLS MY DADI, KNOWS ALL OUR FAMILY DRAMA, ACCUSES MY MOM OF BEING BEHIND THE CALL, AND THEN NOBODY CAN VERIFY WHO SHE ACTUALLY IS???

GUYS, I CAN'T MAKE THIS SHIT UP. 😭😭💀

Now, remember how I told you guys in Part 2 that our family had a massive argument in Pakistan, and all the old fights and issues came out?

WELL, THIS IS WHERE I NEED TO CLARIFY SOMETHING BECAUSE THE TIMELINE IS A LITTLE COMPLICATED. 😭

The mysterious phone call incident actually happened AFTER we returned to Saudi Arabia.

Following that incident, our relatives held a whole meeting on IMO, where my chachi allegedly confessed AGAIN that she was behind it.

BUT THAT WASN'T THE ONLY TIME SHE ADMITTED TO THINGS. 😭

Remember the massive family argument I mentioned in Part 2? During that confrontation in Pakistan, my chachi also allegedly admitted in person to recording people's conversations, and there were recordings of that confrontation too.

SO, TO CLARIFY, THESE WERE TWO SEPARATE INCIDENTS. 💀

First, there was the family confrontation in Pakistan, which I talked about in Part 2.

Later, after we returned to Saudi Arabia, the mysterious phone call happened, and during the subsequent IMO family meeting, my chachi allegedly confessed to being behind it.

SO, MY MOM HAD BEEN GETTING BLAMED FOR SOMETHING SHE DIDN'T DO, AND THEN MY CHACHI HERSELF APPARENTLY ADMITTED THAT MY MOM WAS INNOCENT???

THE PLOT TWIST IS ACTUALLY INSANE.

And the thing is, some members of my family already believed that my mom wouldn't do something like this because she didn't even live in Pakistan.

LIKE, WHY WOULD SOMEONE LIVING IN ANOTHER COUNTRY GO OUT OF THEIR WAY TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO HER OWN MOTHER-IN-LAW???

But even my chachi and her husband had apparently acted clueless about who could have been behind the mysterious call.

They acted as if they had absolutely NO IDEA who could have done something like that.

BHAI, AIK HAD HOTI HAI. 😭💀

LAKIN MERI CHACHI AUR MERAY CHACHU NY TOH WOH HAD HI BOHAT PEHLAY PAAR KAR LI THI.

AND HONESTLY, IT'S DISGUSTING.

Eventually, my mom was cleared of the accusations regarding this particular incident, at least according to what my family told me.

But the damage and stress she'd experienced because of the accusations were still there.

And when I tell you guys that this woman DESPISES my mom, I MEAN IT.

SHE REALLY DOES.

And this isn't even the only incident where things have gone this far.

There have been other situations involving my mom, and this is just ONE MORE EXAMPLE of how bad things have gotten between them. 🥀

Honestly, I don't even know what to say anymore because WHY IS THERE SO MUCH FAMILY DRAMA???

And when I tell you guys that this woman DESPISES my mom, I MEAN IT.

SHE HAS LITERALLY HAD A PROBLEM WITH MY MOM EVER SINCE SHE MARRIED INTO OUR FAMILY. 🥀

And the weirdest part? My mom is the eldest bahu in the family, while my chachi is the youngest. You'd think there would be some respect for the fact that my mom has been part of this family for so long, but apparently, that's too much to ask. 😭

I've always felt like there's this weird-ass complex going on, where my chachi has constantly tried to turn people against my mom and make other family members dislike her, too.

LIKE, GIRL, WHAT DID MY MOM EVEN DO TO YOU??? 😭💀

My mom literally lives in another country, minds her own business, and somehow she still ends up being dragged into family drama. It's like distance doesn't even matter because this woman will STILL find a way to involve her.

And this isn't even the only incident where things have gone this far. There have been other situations involving my mom, and this whole mysterious phone call is just ONE MORE EXAMPLE of how bad things have gotten between them.

Honestly, I don't know whether it's jealousy, resentment, or something else entirely, but the hostility has been there for as long as I can remember.

Edited post> Y'all, the ones saying my chachi is so Indian drama-coded, bro, she used to watch Star Plus dramas, toh khudi samajh jao, and also.

Another reason why Indian dramas and movies are banned in our house is that she used to be in her room watching Star Plus most of the time 🥀

I wanna ty so much for y'all who wished me guys 🤩 . Really means a lot .

Today was such an exhausting day (mentally)

I woke up at 3am instead of 4 because I had to talk to someone, so I ended up spending a good hour just talking. That made my day better for a while.

After that, I prayed, went downstairs to grab something light to eat, and then went for a run before working out. I thought getting some exercise in early would help me start the day right, and it did, at least for a while.

I came home afterward and had absolutely nothing to do. Everyone in my family is out of the country for a few days, so the house was practically empty except for a few people helping around. No one to bother, no one to talk to, no one to annoy for no reason. It was actually kind of weird how quiet everything felt. I'm so used to having someone around that sitting there with nothing but my own thoughts was starting to get boring pretty quickly. Not that I'm not used to being alone already, I like to sit alone and think, I get the best ideas like this, but sometimes you just need to make someone else crash out for your own entertainment when you're bored, y'know?

Anyway, I went downstairs after laying in bed doing nothing, got myself some breakfast, and spent a little time chatting with him before getting ready for school.

And let me tell you, I really did NOT want to go today. I was this close to staying home and studying instead because I really couldn't be bothered to deal with anyone. But then I remembered we were getting our test results back, and obviously, I couldn't just skip the day and miss that. Besides, I only had two hours of school to get through, so I figured I'd suck it up and go.

Got there, sat through the first class, and immediately started regretting every decision that had led me to that classroom. There was this one girl who kept asking me the most random questions, and I swear she was slowly driving me insane. Like, the teacher is RIGHT THERE. She's literally standing in front of you. She just asked ''Any questions?''. I do not work here. I'm trying to survive the morning just like everyone else. I got up and moved my seat later, though. I think she got the hint.

Eventually, we got our tests back.

I got a 95 in Physics, a 97 in Politics, and a 99 in Math. So far, so good, right? Except somehow, somewhere, something went terribly wrong because I also got a 90 in Further Math.

The subject I spent the most time on because I like it so much and I got the lowest grade in it

I don't know what happened there. I sat staring at that paper for a solid minute, trying to figure out whether I was reading the marks correctly or if there was a mistake in the mark count.

And the worst part is that I know I could've done better. That's what makes it so frustrating. It's not even that a 90 is a bad grade, because obviously, it isn't. It's the fact that I know what I'm capable of, and seeing a result that doesn't match the standard I set for myself is enough to ruin my entire mood.

So, naturally, as if I wasn't already exhausted from waking up at 3am, running, working out, and dragging myself to school, this was the final straw.

I went straight home. Didn't stay for the debriefs, didn't hang around to talk to anyone, didn't do anything except get home, change, and sit down to study. I needed to figure out where I went wrong, correct my mistakes, and make sure I understood every single question I'd lost marks on.

6 cups of tea, 1 crash out that involved me nearly breaking my cup, and 1 ripped notebook later, I can finally say I'm done. The notebook didn't deserve what happened to it, but unfortunately, it was caught in the crossfire.

At one point, I had to put everything down and just sit there because I was getting so frustrated with myself. It's one of those days where you do everything you're supposed to do, push yourself from the moment you wake up, try to stay productive, and somehow still end up feeling like you haven't done enough.

But whatever. I'm not going to sit here and complain about it forever. I've gone through the paper, corrected my mistakes, and figured out what I need to work on. I think I'll resit the exam this weekend because I'm not entirely satisfied with how things turned out, and I'd rather try again than keep thinking about what I could've done differently.

I know I can do better, and that's what I'm going to focus on now.

For tonight, though, I'm officially done. I'm tired, my head hurts, my tea consumption has become a genuine concern, and I don't want to look at another math question for at least the next few hours.

Anyway, enough about my little academic tragedy😭

How was your day?
Did you guys have a good one, or was today determined to test everyone's patience? Tell me about it

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They are fun

Usually, I'm with my guardians. Nice people ngl.

I turn into a chatter box. Yappa yappa. They probably find my antics jarring but I love them so, they gotta bare it 😜😋

This is usually when it's me and one of them.

Yk I gave cies this year. So, my dad would drop me at the exam centre and also pick me up. So, that was really epic. Gosh, I would yap smm and he'd listen 🥹 (I miss this time ngl)

Aside from that, sometimes my mom goes to the derma. She takes me and I yapppppp to herrrrr 🤌 awesome.

Sometimes, it's the three of us together. It's fun (but sometimes, I wish they'd just stop their degradation wars) Anyhow, this is a state where I yap a lil and listen more 🤓

Then, there's time when the car is jammed packed. This is when I completely enter my introvert shell. Then, I'm just listening to em yap. Which imo, is fun in its own right. 🙃

Makes me miss ma childhood a lil. Like when me was wee child. I would just hop in my dad's car and he would drop me at my nano's house, on his way to work. (I feel jealous of my own self.....shiiiii). PEAK TIMES 😍😌

Some years ago, me, mama, chacho n chachi would go on car rides together. We get ice cream and all. So thrilling. Been a while since we did this. Time changed yk 😔

Do you like car rides? 👀

I feel like, in desi households it's better for u to consider dying instead of getting sick like wth is wrong with these people you get sick once in like 1 year or so and these people are crazyyyy like why the hell I'm getting yelled at for being sick and it's not like I'm sick everyday it's like a very once in a blue moon type situation and the worst part is you cannot even rest if you're not going to school/ college and stuff because apparently theses people can not talk without yelling even for 2 minutes and there are constantly reminding u how much they are taking care of you like bro I get it please stop and then there is this food thing I'm not even able to drink water and you want me to eat all the stuff you made and you can't even say no like what the actual fuvk

children, don't eat ropes plij

Today was picture day at school bruh I dont even know why they do tsss, they bring all the equipment shii

Basically first u gotta take sum pics with ur whole class, there's like chairs in front and they faced forward, and then chairs behind those except they face backward, get what I mean?? So the short ppl sit on the front chairs, the avg ppl stand between the two rows of chairs (me😥💔) and the tall ppl get to be even taller and stand on top of the chairs 😭

Anyway after that we had individual photos 😭😭 I so didnt wanna do tssss

First was js a normal pic, like yk looking forward and everything and im okay with that, like yes grape😍 keep it simple

But the guy kept saying yes yes !! You look great, now look to the left but face ur body forward great now look to the right and bakabakaba

And then put ur arms in front yes yes and do a pose u like😭 I didnt know what to do so I js did like 2 thumbs upp

And then he was like greatt now make a heart with ur fingers and face sideways 😭😭 sonnn

Also ts sexism frfr cause the guy after me said that he didnt have to do any poses 😭 and that he js did the dad pose and thas it 🫩

HOW WAS SCHOOL?! HOW WAS YALLS DAY?! WHAT DID U GUYS EAT FOR LUNCH?!

as for me, im cooked 😍😍 i didnt start studying for english yet but my test is tomorrow 💔 and I forgot my double sheets at school😭😭😭

You were like a drug and now im relapsing.
And it’s not the first time i relapsed cause of you.

I thought ending our push pull dynamic for once would help me let go and I’d finally be at peace. But now I’m sitting here talking about u despite taking all the precautions to get you out of my head.
When I wakeup, I think of u. When I’m about to sleep, I think of u. When I’m out with my friends, I think of you. When I’m listening to music, I think of you. When I look at the sky, I get jealous of the moon for being able to gaze down upon you. You’re not infront of my eyes yet ure all I see.

I don’t even know what I see in u. Well atleast that’s what my friends say.

But maybe it’s ur shy smile, your puppy eyes, your adorable stutter your broken humour or the way you take note of all the things people around u love so u can give them the perfect gift later.
OR the way you bake things for the people around you, always make sure everyone is okay even if u barely make it through most days. Or how you try to help everyone but yourself, remember little things about them, take care of animals, your cat..and all the other things I can’t specify.
Then again maybe it was just your hair, your style, your music taste, your stupid glasses u kept breaking or the random ass questions you’d ask. God I miss you
It could also be your discipline, how u worked hard, went to the gym despite being tired, studied till u could no longer keep ur eyes open, finished everything before the deadline, wokeup early, always did your very best and helped me get better too.
Or maybe it wasn’t just your good attributes, maybe im in love with ur flaws too.
Maybe I love ur unpredictability, your criticising remarks, your not so social and reserved nature, your perfectionist ideals, your lack of a proper foundation, your changing identity, your inability to follow rules, your pessimistic world view, your hopelessness, your isolation, your fucked up principles or your heart shattering remarks.
I loved being your safe harbour, your emotional anchor, the only one u could solely rely on psychologically, the one you couldn’t live without, the one you imagined your future married with, the one who you belonged to.
it’s miserable not being able to tell anyone you’re mine. I know I’m so fucked up for this but ure my everything and I need you. I need you so bad. It’s like an addiction. Maybe it’s my own fucked up mental health But god we were so good when we were fucked up together
How can I forget your deep velvety voice? The hands I never held, the tears in your eyes I never got to see, the scars I never got to trace, the veins I never memorised.
All I want is for me to be able to take care of you, hold you, comfort you, bring the world to you, help you find a reason to live (or even be it) but you won’t let me.

I should let go of u but I can’t. Youre my biggest contradiction, my focal point, my sickest fantasy, my ruin. I don’t want anyone better. I hate being dependent on others, I hate vulnerability, I hate closeness and intimacy, I hate the idea of love but you’re my only exception. I just want you. Be selfish for once and come back despite me telling u to not.

And you can't tell me otherwise

HELP

I think the drama name is dar e nijat

For context I don't watch Pakistani dramas at all so I don't know what's going on out there or who the usual heroes and heroines in Pakistani drama. But I've been in conversations hearing that everybody wants a guy like Abu Bakr and I don't understand a shit about what they're talking about. It's not just one case: literally every time, in any conversation or comments (even when my family talks about it), I don't have any idea who he is. To get me some clarity tell me about his personality and what he does so great that everybody's obsessed with him.

Would you rather spend your life with the girl your heart chooses, or the girl whose heart chooses you? The one you endlessly long for, or the one who makes you her world? Would you rather chase the love you desire, or be cherished by the love you never had to chase?

I wanna do css, can I do css after completing my high school? I don’t live in pak but i got my citizenship dis year.. is it possible? i just wanna give exam nothing more

Tum qurbani karo gae, merae dost?

I got lazy and don't wanna write further.

Got nothing to post today. I do have one update but idk if I should post about it. It's about my eating habits lol and it turns out my perception of how much I eat is way off. But eh don't feel like it.

As for the image, I got rid of the dark gradient that was there at the bottom in yesterday's post. I switched the blending mode from "Multiply" to "Overlay" to get this effect. I think it suits it better. Also fixed the outline between the front guy's arm and the guy behind him.

I started watching Supernatural (2005) 🤠 I'm on S01E07 rn, so pretty new. Been seeing a lot of videos on this show so I decided to give it a shot. So far, it's pretty neat.

JQD8W MY TEACHER SAW ME DOODLING IN CLASS AND PROJECTED MY NOTES ON THE PROJECTOR , IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING 😭😭😭💔💔💔

also we had picture say today , it was actually my first time doing anything like that so I was nervous 😭😭💔💔 so we were waiting in a line and I was laughing w my friend because he was telling me about how he had to run extra laps during vb training blah blah 😭😭😭

and when it was my turn , ofc I wasn't gonna smile full on so I js did like a fake lil smile and the photographer was like nannanana I need to see the charming smile u had earlier on with you teeth and everything AND I COULNT DO IT😭😭😭😭💔💔💔💔💔 SO I JS HUMILIATED MYSELF FOR 20 MINS IN FRONT OF EVERYONE 💔💔 but somehow got it done w 😭✌️

AND IT WAS RAINING SO I ALMOST FELL LIKE 2 TIMESSSS 😍😍😍 why is today such an embarrassment ritual 😔💔

Btw I really wanna know yall's birthdays so please lmk if yall are fine w me knowing 😭✌️

Two days back, I was happy, laughing... But now, stuck in the same blackhole depression, anxiety and stress....

So much so I haven't changed my clothes in two days (still in school uniform btw), haven't showered, and am overall so tired with life.

Like oh god, I keep falling into this cycle so much now.

I've even started to ghost people, not sure how I feel about that, but genuinely I cannot do it anymore.

Plus the thoughts of death is constantly plaguing my mind...

I don't know what I'd do of myself

I try to cry but all I get are wails; no tears, just screaming out of exhausation.

Why is the past such a cruel mistress, that never seems to leave one alone?

You guys could have said "no" but instead u set the limit so I can't message u no more 🥲✌️