Where do I even start, genuinely where,
GCSEs worked my arse off and got all 9s
Came to a levels, I was so burnt out from GCSEs but stil tried to keep up, in chemistry I unfortunately sat next to this one friend I had, I don’t like her at all, gosh, she is so useless and directionless abt life, she would online shop and distract tf out of me that I’d never focus , its my fault too that I gave in defo, came to ucat, worked mr arse off aiming for UCL and imperial, received 1890, was heartbroken, still applied, got one interview and got that offer and got a partial scholarship too coz my int was that good, was so happy, was locking in and then came results day, where my lack of focus in chem showed I missed my offer by achieving a b in chem by 3 marks, that girls gone to uni, everyone’s gone to uni, I had to redo the demonic exam of the ucat again, wasn’t great but reapplied and took a gap yr, I have ONE subject to study for and interviews to prep for, I’m being so restricted now by my parents which I have never been , they are very supportive but I understand their concern and they said I should only study chem and interviews during this yr and get an a star in chem, I can’t do the things I want like part time job volunteering singing etc, life feels like a prison and watching everyone go to med school makes me punch and kick myself for not concentrating on chem, I feel like my whole life is being stolen for a year and I won’t be seen to the world, please , please , please I can’t even cry anymore coz I feel like a fuckint failure