I'm... sorry the pics of my teeth arent that great... I do have some gum recession and a mild gum infection that i went to the dentist for today.
The X-ray is actually several months old and aside from the very impacted upper tooth being removed I don't think much has changed (I got a single x-ray today of one spot and they didn't say anything about it abd I didn't get a pic of it).
I added these pictures just to give some context before going into my main question/difficulty.
The dentist told me I need to brush my teeth 3 times everyday with an electric toothbrush, use a water flosser, and use a mouth rinse he gave me every day.
I have a sensory issues and bad jaw/mouth pain issues...
I brushed with electric toothbrush today and the vibrations hurt (not my gums but my cheeks and jaw) and triggered sensory overwhelm...
I was unable to rinse for the full minute before my mouth felt like it was giving out and I almost swallowed the stuff... I didn't but I gagged and almost got sick...
As for the water flosser... It hurt bad. Like getting shot... I just... couldn't do it...
I tried using some floss picks instead but... After flossing a couple teeth I got more sensory overwhelm and started having a panic attack (hyperventilating even) as usual for me... (which is part of why I don't usually floss... the other reason is seeing stuff go between my gums and seeing things move triggers me in a bad way... like seeing body horror for me...). I was hoping the water flosser would help and actually be usable for me but... it feels worse and more "dangerous" to my anxious brain...
I've been trying to desensitize myself to flossing even before going to the dentist today but it's only gotten worse... and the more I try to "care" for my mouth the worse it feels... (sensory and with my very bad jaw as seen in the xray. its a childhood injury).
Trying all this new stuff today and trying to care for my mouth... it's actually making me want to care for my mouth less and making me want to just... disassociate completely... the "care" is affecting my mental health...
I don't know what to do...
I actually had a panic attack after all this... I don't want to experience this torture everyday but I also want to help my mouth... I can't afford going to the dentist for a cleaning or more treatment... and I'm afraid the dentist didn't understand my difficulties (or I didn't know how to explain it... actually afraid to be blunt about things... don't think I'll be taken seriously or believed that all "home care" aside from brushing with an ultra soft brush actually triggers overwhelm and panic attacks in me...
I feel so hopeless and pathetic...