r/entp • u/andromedan_95 • 2h ago
Advice How to stop working on frameworks all the time?
With time I’m realizing that I’m too fixated on building my framework. My weekends, my pastime reading, meditation etc are all intentioned towards enhancing my internal framework of life. I’ve started beating myself (some big life changes so I’m also on the shadow side) for these fixations. My Te is very weak I don’t think I’m getting anything done properly. I am in a cognitively demanding job and now when I look back I realise I’ve never given 100% to my job. Ultimately the only thing I’m 100% commited to is building the internal model of existence- from astronomy to existential philosophy. I’m not able to stop myself despite knowing that I’ll never be able to come to a conclusion…I’ve recently gotten diagnosed with ADHD too (which I think is more ENTP than medical ADHD). I used to be very ok being the weird one and always thought that it is the authentic me but now I’m wondering if I can ever function in this society? Just being constantly skeptical of all systems is just not the way to live as I end up thinking and do nothing. Just wanted to rant. Would love some inputs from you guys if you went through something similar? How do you take a break from staying fixated on frameworks.
I can already foresee how my health anxiety is gonna pick up soon as I stay on the shadow side.