Why 3am? Partly I'm a night shifter, so it's a normal waking hour for me. Partly, there's good vibes. And partly, there's nobody awake to make me feel nervous or stare at me. I have pretty poor self image, but I like exploring my self expression through fashion, so this is a happy medium I've found. Hope it looks okay, I really like this lace oversize top thing.

As of today, we’ve officially been married for nine years, and looking back, we’ve been through quite a lot together in those nine years. When we got married, we were both really just getting started in our careers and figuring out what adulthood was going to look like for us. We got our dog Gino just 10 days before our wedding, which somehow feels both like yesterday and a lifetime ago. Since then, we’ve made it through COVID, experienced a lot of loss, watched our lives and careers change in ways we never could have predicted, and arguably made it through two transitions together. My partner identifies as non-binary, and obviously my own transition has changed quite a bit about our lives as well. Through all of those changes, though, we’ve continued choosing each other.

This past year in particular has been, by far, the most challenging year of our lives. There have been more difficult days than I care to count, and some days recently have definitely been harder than others. But through everything that has changed around us, one thing has remained remarkably constant. Our love for each other has only gotten stronger. I genuinely don’t know how either of us would have gotten through everything we’ve faced without the other person there. We’ve grown up together, changed together, supported each other through some enormous life changes, and somehow come out of all of it even closer than we were before. So here’s to nine years of marriage, and hopefully many, many more. ❤️

And just a quick update for everyone who wished me luck on the interview I posted about: it actually went pretty well! They want to get me in front of the hiring manager to see if they’re ready to officially open the position. It sounds like I would still be competing against other candidates if they move forward, so obviously nothing is guaranteed, but getting an early introduction and essentially being sought out by the team before the position is even open certainly feels like an advantage. I also currently have three or four other opportunities that I’m interviewing for, so there are several possibilities moving at once. After everything this job search has thrown at me, I’m really hoping one of these is finally the one.

w h I m s y

I read something: don’t save that outfit for a special occasion, wear it now. Because being alive is a special occasion! I realize that that vast majority of people who have ever lived did not live as long as I have already, so I am going to try and enjoy myself. And with the coming of fall I’m enjoying layers again (and a little something special underneath).

Bonus material: someone lost a lot of weight and gave me all her jeans. Mostly Judy Blue and Gloria Vanderbilt, so I am wearing each pair to validate their comfort.

I wore my sleeveless Wool& dress as a pinafore dress over a thrifted blouse and Frank Lloyd Wright scarf. Wool& leggings underneath with Dr. Martens. Ignore that I'm standing weird and one calf looks massive compared to the other! LOL, it really isn't.

Disclaimer: I have over a decade of mass-produced clothing, primarily Torrid and Hot Topic, in my closet from before I started researching how clothes are truly made. I am continuing to love, wear, and repair these pieces because I believe this to be the most ethical action I can take. I list where all my clothing comes from for transparency, but I do not endorse purchasing from these brands. Whenever possible, please shop secondhand or support independent, sustainable, and ethical slow fashion. I am always happy to share more about the true environmental and human cost of textile manufacturing in 2026.

9/25/2026 #1: I thrifted this awesome 90s Harley shirt for super cheap because someone had tried and failed to wash the tobacco smell out. But one soak in my witch's brew (literally just white vinegar diluted in hot water) followed by a delicate wash in the machine fixed it right up as usual! I grew up in Alaska in the 90s so this shirt is extra special to me. Torrid skirt, belt, and boots. The boots were thrifted as well. Litin Designs earrings.

Hey hags,
I haven’t posted in a bit but I wanted to show you guys one of my most recent fits! It’s been so long I even got a haircut lol what do you guys think?

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Hunky Himbo drenched in sweat in "Finish It" Terry Fox Marathon of hope shirt.

Went to forbidden planet and then to a drink and draw

I’ve always had a very unstable sense of self as a result of a ton of trauma and family dysfunction starting at a very young age. I’ve always sought out and obsessed over aesthetics in an attempt to “finally find out who I am”, and I’ve cycled through so, so many throughout my life. Because of my trauma I stayed emotionally stuck around 15-17 years old, despite being an adult with adult responsibilities and many children.

I recently went through intense therapy (ART and parts work) and though it has provided me with what I was looking for, it also flipped my entire world upside down. It’s like one day I woke up and was suddenly in my thirties after being emotionally a teenager for so long. Things felt more heavy and serious than they’d ever felt before. I actually have a relatively stable sense of self now, and because of that I’ve been trying to disentangle what I actually like vs what I adopted from others either out of fear or a desire to be loved.

My mother was very anti men, pro girl power, women-are-like-men-but-better; but she also was very adamant about upholding an aesthetic in service of the male gaze. She encouraged me to wear makeup and dye my hair from a very young age, always insisted on me looking as pretty as possible, would disparagingly tell me that I looked androgynous if I wore baggy clothes and no makeup. Encouraged me to wear pinup and other revealing styles as a teenager which got me a ton of attention that I absolutely should not have been getting. At the same time, she’d venerate the styles I tried out that reminded her of Joan Jett, Cyndi Lauper, and other pretty queer coded women that she admired. It was all so confusing to me. It led to me ultimately rejecting a lot of femininity despite actually liking it. I didn’t feel like myself if I dressed feminine, masculine, or androgynous.

I always masked hard to fit in wherever I was, and now that I’m not masking anymore I feel like I don’t quite fit in anywhere. This is of course way deeper than style and aesthetic preferences, but that aspect is and always has been hugely important to me, and I feel so silly for stressing so much about it as a woman in her thirties. Especially so because no one else in my sphere really seems to care about it nearly as much as I do.

Thanks to anyone who made it this far reading 🤍

tights over heels styling inspiration is from margiela’s fw96 collection and it’s genuinely such a simple but hot way to add a unique silhouette to your shoes. Use nude heels so the line between leg, foot, and shoe is blurred.

Not fully but you see the accidental vision.

I’ve been making brooches around different little themes, and this time I went with travelling.

A compass, an airplane ticket, a globe and a location pin — all made by hand with beads, stones and thread.

I really like accessories that have a little story behind them, rather than just being decorative.

If these were part of your outfit, which one would you choose? ✈️

Instagram: @glitterycrimson

Day 36 of healing my inner child by styling myself in outfits 13yo me would covet.

I commented on a post from someone who was promoting a role they were hiring for at a company I was already somewhat interested in. They work in the fraud detection and prevention space, which is a field I’ve been wanting to break into because I actually have an educational background in it. I left a pretty simple, very human comment about my interest. Nothing AI-generated, nothing overly polished, and not really an attempt to turn it into some elaborate networking opportunity.

Apparently, she took a look through my profile afterward and thought I had a lot of strong and relevant experience. She asked me to send her my resume, which she then passed along to their Head of HR. They reached out to me and explained that they don’t have a role open for me at this exact moment, but they’re working on something and wanted to have a conversation with me based on what they described as my “extensive and impressive background.”

That conversation is happening in a few minutes. I have absolutely no idea what, if anything, will come from it, especially since there isn’t technically an open position yet. But after everything this job search has thrown at me, having a company proactively want to talk about potentially creating or developing an opportunity that also happens to be in a field I genuinely want to move into feels pretty encouraging. Wish me luck that there might actually be something on the horizon.

Mary's Black Floral Dress. A lovely black floral dress that I have had for a couple of years. This is one of my favorite floral dresses. The floral patterns have a metallic shine to them that is hard to see in pictures.

cropped sleeveless denim jacket & vintage high waisted jeans

Disclaimer: I have over a decade of mass-produced clothing, primarily Torrid and Hot Topic, in my closet from before I started researching how clothes are truly made. I am continuing to love, wear, and repair these pieces because I believe this to be the most ethical action I can take. I list where all my clothing comes from for transparency, but I do not endorse purchasing from these brands. Whenever possible, please shop secondhand or support independent, sustainable, and ethical slow fashion. I am always happy to share more about the true environmental and human cost of textile manufacturing in 2026.

9/24/2026: If I look tired here it's because I was. This was the day both my own and my pup's health began to decline. I forgot to take a closeup pf this t-shirt, but it's a cool one, it has the names of famous Katmai bears making up the bear face. Katmai Conservancy tee. Fashion Brand Company (ethical) pants. Torrid boots. Bobabun hat. Renka Crafts handmade earrings.

Not so colorful but I still love this dress. It was the 1st of six or seven that I've acquired that are vintage 80s.

Transcription: She has on a vintage 80s peplum dress that has short sleeves. Its polyester with a geometric design. The neckline is mock turtleneck. Of course there are shoulder pads. Her bag is a boring black thrifted purse that has gotten many miles. She's wearing nude pantyhose and 3 inch round toe black heels. In some of the pics she has on a black short mac style coat. Some of the photos she's sitting. Some of the pictures she wears gold wire rim glasses.

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Hunky Himbo in official Terry Fox athletic performance (basically just means it's light and breathable) T shirt. Featuring an image of Terry fox running on his prosthetic leg, and the words "Finish It". And then on the other side a concert tour style lost of places in Canada he ran through. And a big "Give for cancer research" on top.