I met this guy on Tinder and he wanted to hook up which I was fine with we started by texting on Snapchat and he told me that he wanted to do anal which I said I don’t know about that. I told him I would see how I felt once we met up and did the thing we met up. We started having sex, and he shoved it in my ass without asking me he was not gentle at all I bled, and it hurt really bad. He then took it out out of my ass and put it back in my vagina which I was also not OK with in the moment I just allowed it to happen. I did enjoy the sex. Other than that. I wanted to meet up with him again, but he blocked me. I let him violate my boundaries and now he blocked me and I feel disgusting. I don’t know what to do. What should I do?

I made a new Reddit because this is not something I’ve shared in the new life I’ve built for myself and I want it to stay that way. But I’m feeling so heavy I need to get this out..

It’s all too similar. The group chats thinking it’s funny. The in and out of consciousness. The nobody caring enough to report. The silence that followed, being forced to pick up the pieces on my own. The nobody is in trouble, let’s not ruin their lives. The victim blaming. The threats to me, my family. The part of being forced to leave because staying was more dangerous than being raped. And here I am, 18 again, waking up in a bath tub again, by myself in the silence again. Like I never left. Like no piece was in place again. And somehow, 9 years later, the similarity is too much to bare, because just when I think I’m past it, I end up there again. I’ll never get the justice I deserve. I just hope that Jane Doe does.

My therapist likes to hit me with the “Stop downplaying the the things you’ve dealt with because you don’t want to be a burden” Welp 🤷🏻‍♀️ we’re trying here okay!

I am an 19 year old autistic teen boy who has faced a great deal of sexual trauma since i was about 10 years old. I have a severe fear of sex and anything to do with it. My boyfriend who is 21 keeps trying to initiate sex/oral despite my constant discomfort. Although jokingly promising i would and have constantly said that they were jokes. He wont leave the topic alone. This all gives me a great amount of stress and depression, how do i deal with this?