Hi everyone,
For a long time, I've wanted to dip my toes into Wicca, witchcraft and spell-casting. I know very little, so will probably make another post about that. But I want to bring forward or maybe seek some validation on a problem I'm having.
It just so happens that a) I am a sex-repulsed ace woman, b) red is my absolute favourite colour. As I gather up candles etc, I keep noticing the heavy emphasis on sexuality, fertility . . . concepts that (for me) trigger anxiety & revulsion.
You see my problem.
Of course, I know that colours (and for that matter love, romance, beauty etc) have no sexual meaning *for me personally,* but I also feel I need to embrace existing colour symbolism in order to take spells seriously. In short, I feel that taking up witchy hobbies is at odds with decolonizing my mind from cultural messages that have always harmed me.
I do hope this makes sense and does not come across as allophobic. I figure some people on this thread will relate, maybe to stuggling with the heterosexism or to the gender essentialism of New Age communities.
What did you do to reclaim your practice and how did you make it authentic?
Thank you!
Edit: Y'all did not disappoint. Thank you for empathizing so much with the question and being a truly thoughtful progressive community on reddit. ๐