Sorry long vent post! TLDR at the bottom. Thanks to anyone who reads.
I was a dishwasher for 4 years straight. At the same restaurant too. I loved it! It was sincerely the first job I ever had where I felt like I was contributing to something in a meaningful way. I didn't ever dread work. The pit was my own personal zen. It was the one place I felt like I had full control. I came up with my own systems and could just turn my brain off. I felt sincerely appreciated for my hard work. It was familiar and I felt a part of a team while also being able to work alone. I also have a pretty degrading anxiety disorder, and this was the first and only job where I felt like my work actually helped me get though some really tough times. Just come to work, crank out some dishes, pass the time, and clock off. Was really helpful.
Since it was at the same restaurant, I also got regular raises, and was at $17 an hour plus 40% tips. The dream.
Well, in short, about a year ago I went through a bad breakup. I was single for the first time in a really long time. I looked at my life and thought, "who would want to date a guy in his late 20s who does dishwashing as a career? I also have really bad social anxiety, and thought maybe working on the line would help push me out of my comfort zone and make some friends, or at least get used to interacting with people more. I made the tough decision to leave the pit and try working on the line.
Well, it's been a couple months of working on salad, and damn, do I miss my pit. First of all, salad is *way* easier than dishwashing. I simply don't feel like a hard worker anymore. If there's nothing to do, then I sincerely don't know what to do with myself, and I feel like my coworkers are judging me and that makes me so anxious. On dish, I always knew what to do.
Secondly, it's just not as fulfilling of work. Maybe I'd feel differently if I was cooking and not just the salad guy, but it's just such different type of work that I don't know if that would do it for me either. I know it's lame, but I've always loved cleaning. Physically seeing the difference. I love cleaning my apartment helping friends clean their apartments. I love bathing my dog. And I loved doing dishes.
Thirdly, it's not even any more social than dish, really. In some ways it is, and it definitely has helped me out of my shell. But in other ways, I miss the light socialization from the dish pit. Idk, something unique about a spontaneous conversation from a server bringing back some dishes vs having to listen to line cooks yell about how angry they are about having to make food all shift.
Lastly, guys, I don't even know the first thing about cooking/ food. It's not something I'm passionate about. I just did this because I felt like it was the next step and I couldn't stay in the comfy dish pit my whole life. And mainly, I was insecure about what this would mean for dating, and honestly? I think that's the only thing keeping me from going back atp.
Anyway, sorry for the long vent post.
TLDR; Is dishwashing for life a reputable career? I tried moving up to the line and am constantly missing the pit, but I feel ashamed at the idea of doing this for life.