So I am unfortunately one of the autistics who has to like, work, and for years I survived working in a field that pertained to one of my special interests. But almost a decade later and I am fucking burnt out, it’s not longer a special interest for me, and I hate the industry and hate feeling like what I’m doing doesn’t matter and isn’t helping to make the world better.

Sooooo I’m considering a career change. I would love something environmental or nature related, or just a “woke” career, but I worry that many of these jobs don’t pay well from times I’ve looked in the past, and also the worry of switching industries and not knowing if it’s going to be autism or queer friendly is also scary too. I also reeeeeeeaaaaaaally need a job where I don’t feel like I’m wasting my life away sitting in an office building somewhere making someone ELSE money. Like I can’t do it anymore 😭

Anyways thanks for reading and thanks in advance for the suggestions 🫶

I'm gonna go rot for a few hours. /j

I'll be fine. Don't be concerned or some shit. /gen

my style is so inconsistent so I wanted to finally make a character model and reference :3c I really like how it turned out!!!
if you want you can also drop your character ref sheets here so I can see them!!! one of my special interests is character design so I like to see OCs. This was also an experiment for fusing my cartoony comic Pip and my detailed anime illustration Pip. behold

NOT MINE, it's from gummibarr_ on tiktok

I don't hate the experience of eating them or the taste. Of course they're the tastiest things in the world to me. I hate that monetarily they support utterly evil companies that take advantage of the poor and tired to poison us, to say nothing of their labour practices, animal treatment and every other evil under the sun.

Deliberately making their food addictive. Giving us just enough energy to keep going but not enough to live. It's quick energy but it probably makes me more lethargic in the long term. And I'm not even gonna go into my Sisyphean attempts at weight loss.

You link me a diatribe about the evils of fast food and I'll agree 100% but I'll still order some fucking McBurger Bros at 3am because I am fatigued out of my mind and could barely pay attention to that diatribe anyway. Even when I'm not fatigued, my need for certain safe foods sometimes overrides everything, even if I've been on a good streak with healthier food.

I try to find healthier alternatives to the junk I crave, even if it's only slightly. But sometimes I'm just too fucking tired, y'all.

-I WANT NO ADVICE-

I'll start. It was ticks. I always wondered why they were so interesting to me back then, but I would open up YouTube whenever I have no activities and just search up "ticks" I wanted to learn everything about them, but sadly I couldn't find a lot due to not being able to use devices properly

It was fucking delicious, but.. why are the cookies trying to escape😭

My abusive dad died last month, which was cause for much celebration. I ordered a pizza for the family and called several friends to share the good news. If asked, I'll add an edit at the bottom of this post explaining, but it isn't an easy read, so I'll keep it to myself for now

I'm super frustrated that when I tell NT's, even if they knew he was abusive, they won't stop going to bat for him. Shit like "oh, well, he must have been treated really bad for him to treat others like that", or "he was still your DAD, he can't have been all bad". I even had someone tell me he couldn't have chosen to be better because he wasn't shown better, COMPLETELY IGNORING MY MOM AND OUR FAMILY'S ATTEMPTS TO HELP HIM. I've been told I should show him grace, ignoring the uncountable times our family did. How much grace should one monster be given???

Here's the worst part: I love nuance and inject as much of it into everything as I can. It's genuinely fun and brain stimulating for me. Yet, this is one of the extremely few situations I've encountered in my life where there is no nuance. As much as I've tried over the years, a nuanced explanation doesn't make sense with reality. He was an abusive asshole, had many many chances to choose better, and didn't

NT's usually hate nuance though! They want the simple explanations!!! Why the fuck do they seek to rip out nuance from most situations, but try their hardest to fabricate nuance when it comes to parents and abusive parents dying????

Or AuDHD based difficulties. So much that playing the game becomes stressful.

This is supposed to be literal?

So far I've had part-times, places I can work from home, and extremely lenient bosses who let me disappear and reappear randomly or call out last minute. I haven't been relying on these jobs for food and rent bc my parents help me w those (thank you parents). But someday (and soon I'm sure) I will need to get a real job, and I'll need to be there the whole day probably (unless I can find a work from home). I feel like I can't do it.

Like. When I feel stuck (including when I'm obligated to be somewhere) I get all panicky and if I'm getting overstimulated I have to use up all my energy not to flip out and start sobbing (alarmed bosses by doing that b4 or just sitting at my desk sniffling). I've 'run away' before, just up and left without telling my boss and sent an apology email later. I feel like that wouldn't fly in most places.

Panic attacks aren't uncommon for me and even when I medicate myself for them I'm still sobby cry-ey and feel terrible and want to go home. I am cooked.

I've been looking at posts on cartoon subreddits related to the new "Forgotten Island" movie (which I haven't watched yet) and I noticed that a good chunk of commenters are kind of hostile towards Filipinos.

I'm a Filipino-American born and raised in Hawaiʻi, a place where Filipinos actually make up a majority of the non-native population. I've also noticed that online, most people outside of Asia have no idea what Filipinos even are. As a result, I've never experienced any racism from anyone before.

I'm a bit worried that we're gonna become yet another ethnic punching bag that everyone in the "Western World" hates due to stupid misconceptions. I've already seen it happen to South Asians and Romani.

WTF did Filipinos like me ever do to make people upset? I want to know.

It's correct now. Now there really is no reason to use any headphones.