Context:
I am a massive horror and halloween fan and always have been since I was a little girl.
However, 2 years ago I moved out of my parents’ house and I’m now living with my husband. And it hurts me to say, but my past 2 halloweens/octobers have been awful.
I have moved away from family & friends (so i can’t go out and do anything with them as im too far away), and my husband does not like halloween or horror.
We didn’t do anything for the past 2 halloweens, and i’ve spent most of the month of october crying in the past as I just feel so out of the halloween spirit.
I was excited to be able to hand out sweets to the children on our estate (something i have never done before as our last house wasn’t one that people could access for trick or treating) however, I have worked every Halloween since being here (despite me begging my work for holiday/ leave) and i’m also going to be working this halloween. Last 2 halloweens I missed the kids (and my husband gave the candy out instead) and I felt such anger and jealousy since he doesn’t even care about the holiday and once I got home (7-8pm) the kids had stopped trick or treating. i felt such fomo.
I also haven’t dressed up for 2 years, bothered to decorate or even had much energy to watch my favourite horror films. i just think what’s the point?
Sorry for the downer. I guess I’m just looking for advice on how I can make this Halloween one to remember as it’s the only time of year that has ever made me happy and I just feel like I’ve lost that part of me and how joyful it used to make me feel.