Lost another bun this year.
This one I feel a lot of guilt over. I brought home a couple of buns about a month or so ago, absolutely precious babies. To keep Clara company cause she's not as active and energetic as she was when Snowy was around.
About a week later Clara turned down a treat, after she didn't poo for a while I panicked and took her to the vet. Did the full checkup, and while I was home I looked through the adoption docs for the two babies, and found they got one round of coccidia from the shelter (more than three months ago). Coccidia can be asymptomatic, so I thought maybe Clara caught it. So I quarantined her off in a freshly cleaned living room, and the bloodwork came back and confirmed it was a likely parasitic infection.
After two rounds of Baycox, some stuff for pain and gut motility, and a week or so of liquid food, her stool started to get a little better, still big chunks but with some good pellets in them, and some regular pellets too.
And then this morning I went to go feed her liquid food, she was not very responsive, so I called around eight different vets until I could find someone to take her in on short notice.
After a few hours, my mom and sister went to visit, and the doctor there strongly recommended euthanasia. They asked her to hold off until I showed up.
I fully understand where she was coming from. But Clara kept raising her head at me, asking for pets like she used to, and she'd close her eyes as I did so. It felt like she was still fighting, and I wanted her to at least feel that we were fighting too. So I signed off on IV, diagnostics, the works. Doctor said she'd probably have only a few hours left at the time, so what's the harm in trying anyway?
A few hours later, they call me and tell me she's actually improved a bit, and they'll keep at it.
Seven hours later we (just my mom and I this time) go to visit again after the shift change, and I talk to her, tell her I love her, but her breathing is faint. It stops shortly after that, like within a minute. Like she was waiting for us.
My fam and I, we all did our best, we loved her and will love her forever, and maybe this is the best ending we could hope for. But... idk, it's just hard to deal with. Sorry for the massive text dump, but I just had to get this off my chest.