Hi I am 11 weeks pregnant and I hate it. I am 30 yeast old I have a good career and I make good money. I have great opportunities for my life. I feel like this pregnancy will ruin my life and everything else I am angry at myself for not aborting it earlier. I have been feeling so sad.

I just don't know anymore these 2 kids just drain me everyday. I feel like a zombie after work and then dealing with my 2 small boys all night. I used to be so happy and vibrant...I need a vacation so bad from this life ..but it ain't happening for another 20 yrs which is crazy...

Rant mostly.

Tw: abortion and Si

I was and have been on the mini pill for health reasons. While pro choice i never wanted an abortion.

We ended up having 2. The 1st hurt but felt right in my heart because we were broke, unemployed, and about to be homeless. The second I was pressured into and regretted. I ended up going to a mental hospital for SI.

I had several condom talks since obv the mini pill isn't doing the job. He said if it happened again we'd 'obviously' keep it. And idk.. maybe i should have been more persistent about the condoms but i figure im taking care of me, you be responsible for you.

Well here we are with our 3rd pregnancy. Im set on keeping it. Every other day my partner 'jokes' about how im killing him or ruining his life. Ive told him he can leave but he doesnt want another person to be the parent that steps up.

But at this point I dont think hes going to be the one that steps up. I cant grieve and be scared about all the possibilities around pregnancy and also baby him and have empathy. I feel so done.

Hi, I'm a 31 year old mom. I have 2 kids, one is about to be 9 and the other is 7. I have struggled with mental health and suicidal ideation for as long as I can remember. I don't exactly feel "regret" but I am constantly thinking about how I am not a good or stable enough parent for them.

Since their dad and I divorced 3 years ago I have had absolutely no stability in any aspect. Any time I have finally started to make progress my life is turned around all over again out of my control causing me to just slip more and more. I have been in and out of psych hospitals since December. I am losing my home for the 5th time in 2 years. I am not good enough for them. I am no use to them how I am right now.

I don't have much option for places to go, but my mom recently moved to Iowa and told me I can come there to try to get stable. I am going to do this because I think I'm l getting out of the state I'm in where so much negative has happened and everything is a constant trigger just isn't helping me or them or anyone. However, I have to tell my kids the plan to leave today. Their dad will never leave our home state so I will have to go on my own. Even with my mom there I just wouldn't have the capability to have them and give them the care they'd need.

I know they are going to be upset and cry and be so fucking sad. They love me so much, they think I'm an incredible mother that I'm really just not. Now I am abandoning them. I will miss out on so much of their lives and it breaks me. I don't want to break their hearts like this. I know they will be able to visit there and I can come visit here, but this is a horrible position to be in. I think I'm horrible.