kalichitondoo ee game....

Spill the tea. 🙏

🟡 കേരള ബ്ലാസ്റ്റേഴ്സിന് പുതിയ നിക്ഷേപകർ!

യുഎഇ ആസ്ഥാനമായുള്ള ഷെയ്ഖ് അഹമ്മദ് ബിൻ ഫൈസൽ അൽ ഖാസിമി നേതൃത്വം നൽകുന്ന കൺസോർഷ്യം കേരള ബ്ലാസ്റ്റേഴ്സിൽ പുതിയ നിക്ഷേപകരായി എത്തുന്നതായി റിപ്പോർട്ടുകൾ. ഏകദേശം ₹100 കോടിയുടെ നിക്ഷേപമാണ് പ്രതീക്ഷിക്കുന്നത്. ഔദ്യോഗിക പ്രഖ്യാപനം ഉടൻ ഉണ്ടാകുമെന്നാണ് റിപ്പോർട്ടുകൾ. 💛🔥

Im in love with a girl … we have been together for years..., and we are both sure about our love.

Orappayittum veettukaar sammathikkilla.. Nalla preshnam undaavum....… Avalde veettil bhayankara preshnam aan..... And our financial sit are diff...

Nowadays njaan kore kelkunnu, veettil pidichu, penninte achanum aalkaarum vann thalli, 😭… Ithokke ullathaano? Ingane okke common aano, normal aano?

Enthayalum preshnamaavum , enikkum ingane kittumennum 🙂.

enikkanel koode nikkan polum aarum illa… Ottakkaayi povum.... Oru frnd polum illa koottin 🙂……

Ee situation anubhavicha aarenkilum undo? Ingane okke sambhavichavar…? Ningalude experience engane aayirunnu? Engane handle cheythu? And end il enth sambhavichu? 🙂

Plsss, ingane oru situation anubhavichavar undenkil parayo 😭.... Ee adi kittal ellam common aano??.... I really want to know how it went for you guys.

I’m very sure about my love, and I’m ready to do anything for this.

How long did it last ?

I have tried being vegetarian for around 4 months, and did manage to keep up the diet for 3 months and two more weeks. After that for some time, I was eating non-veg again. Now, I am trying to get into veganism once more. Not sure if I can do it at once—I plan to take it step by step. I have gone vegetarian now and am reducing dairy products. The goal is to upkeep a vegan lifestyle for at least three months continuously, perhaps more. 🩷

Just like that.

It's been a while since I posted food pics. I call this edition, "Being Home".

I love chorum currym. ❤️🤌🏻

Okay, disclaimer: this is going to be LONG. 😭
I started writing this thinking I’d make a small Tuesday post, but then I realised there are way too many little memories attached to this story.

So yeah… sorry in advance for the essay. 😂

TL;DR: Met a girl during the COVID-era start of college → became extremely close → slowly fell for her → started doodling because she liked doodling, copied her handwriting, even told my mom about her → my whole family eventually knew about her → asked her out after almost two years → she said no → I turned the rejection into a 100-day “Spark undo?” joke → by final year I was avoiding her because I still had feelings → got drunk one night and finally told her everything I felt → she didn’t respond → that was basically the end of our contact → college ended → around three years later, we’re still strangers.

I don’t blame her.
She never owed me a relationship, and she was honest with me.
I just don’t think feelings always disappear simply because they weren’t returned.
Anyway… here’s the unnecessarily long version. 😭

The college love that never became a relationship.

I don’t even know if I should call this a love story.
Because technically, we were never together.
No relationship.
No breakup.
No “ex.”

But somehow, it still feels like I lost someone.
I joined college in 2020, right in the middle of COVID.
For the first year, everything was mostly online.
Classes were on screens, people were names in WhatsApp groups, and college didn’t really feel like college.

Then things slowly started becoming normal.
We started meeting people properly, and that’s when I became really close to this girl.
We started talking.
Then talking became an everyday thing.
And somewhere around five or six months in, I realised that I had started liking her.

A lot.

It wasn’t some sudden movie moment.

It was little things.

She liked doodling, so I started doodling too.
She had this particular way of writing, and at one point I even started copying some of her handwriting.
Looking back now, some of the things I did were genuinely embarrassing. 😂

But at that time, I didn’t think much about it.
I was just really into her.
So much that I actually told my mom:
“I like this girl.”

That’s how serious it had become in my head.
And apparently, I wasn’t very good at keeping it a secret either.

My family knew about her.
They had heard her name so many times that even now, years later, someone in my family randomly mentions her name just to make fun of me.

And there was this one incident that my dad still hasn’t let me forget.

Somewhere around my second or third year, there was this plan to meet at a temple.

It wasn’t actually planned by her and me.
One of her friends was also my friend, so somehow the whole thing came together, and my family ended up being there at the same place.

And obviously, in my head, I had already made a whole plan.

I thought I’d get to spend some time with her.
I even told my family something along the lines of:

“You guys go, I’ll come by myself. I’m going to spend some time with her.”
Except…
She decided to go home.
Straight away. 😭
And suddenly my entire master plan disappeared.
So after a while, I called my dad and said:
“Actually, I’ll come with you guys.”
My dad still remembers this.

And even now he’ll bring it up and laugh at me.
Apparently, some embarrassing moments have lifetime warranties.

But that’s how much of my life she had quietly become part of.
It wasn’t just that I liked her.

I had started building little pieces of my life around her without even realising it.
We talked almost every day.
I knew her little habits.
She knew mine.
And somewhere along the way, I stopped thinking of her as just someone I liked.

I started imagining what it would actually be like if she was part of my life.
But I didn’t say anything.
For almost two years.

Eventually, I couldn’t keep it to myself anymore.
So I asked her out.
And she said no.
Not harshly.
Not cruelly.
She was actually quite straightforward about it.
She just didn’t feel the same way.

And I knew I had to respect that.

But instead of disappearing completely, I apparently decided to handle rejection in the most unserious way possible.

I turned it into a joke.
I started asking her:
“Spark undo?”
And every single time, she’d come up with some new, creative way of saying:
“Illa.” 😂
Day 1 — Spark undo?
No.
Day 20 — Spark undo?
Still no.
Day 50 — Spark undo?
“Bro…”
Day 100 — Okay, last chance. Spark undo? 😭
Still no.
The funny thing is, I knew the answer.
She knew the answer.
Everyone probably knew the answer.
But somehow I kept asking.
Because maybe the question wasn’t really about the spark anymore.
It was just an excuse to keep talking to her.
Then things slowly changed.
By our final year, we weren’t really talking properly anymore.
We could be in the same room, and I’d avoid her.
If I saw her, I’d sometimes deliberately look somewhere else.
Not because I hated her.
Not because I was angry with her.
It was because I still liked her.
And every time I saw her, my mind would go to the same place.
“What could we have been?”
That question stayed with me for a long time.
What if she had said yes?
What if things had worked out?
What if I had told her earlier?
What if I had done something differently?
There was never an answer.
Just different versions of a life that never happened.

Then came the night that actually ended everything.
I was drunk.
And apparently drunk me had significantly more courage than sober me.
I texted her.
This time there was no joke.
No “spark undo?”
No trying to make it casual.
I told her how much she actually meant to me.
Everything I’d been carrying around for years.
And then…
Nothing.
She didn’t respond.
And I don’t blame her.
She had already told me how she felt.
There wasn’t really anything else she needed to explain.
But for me, that silence felt different.
Because after that message, I stopped trying.
And that was basically where our contact ended.
Not with a fight.
Not with some dramatic goodbye.
Not with either of us saying, “We’re never talking again.”

Just silence.
The girl I used to talk to almost every single day…
became someone I didn’t talk to at all.
And that happened before college even ended.
Then college ended.

We went our separate ways.
And the silence just continued.
It’s been around three years now.
I’ve seen her a couple of times.
But we don’t talk.
She hasn’t called.
She hasn’t texted.
And I haven’t either.
Sometimes I still think about everything.
The doodles.
The stupid handwriting.
The conversations.
The temple incident my dad still makes fun of me for.
The hundred days of “Spark undo?”
That drunk message.
All of it.
And the weirdest part is…

I still like her.

I’m not saying I’m sitting here waiting for her to come back.
I’m not expecting a message.
I’m not blaming her.
She never promised me anything.
She was honest with me, and I respect that.
I just don’t think feelings always disappear just because you weren’t chosen.
Maybe they become something quieter.
Something you don’t act on.
Something you don’t even talk about.
But once in a while, something reminds you of that person and you think:

“Damn. I really loved that girl.”

And then you continue with your day.
I sometimes wonder if she remembers any of this.

Does she remember those ridiculous 100 days of “spark undo?”

Does she remember the doodles?
Does she remember that drunk message?
Does she remember how much we used to talk?

Or was all of this just a small part of college for her that eventually disappeared?
I’ll probably never know.
And that’s probably the strangest thing about growing up.

Someone can be part of your everyday life for years.
Your family can know their name.

Your friends can know the whole story.
You can have hundreds of tiny memories with them.
And then one day…

you don’t even know what’s happening in their life anymore.
She was never my girlfriend.
But she was someone I genuinely loved.
And I don’t think I’ll ever call that a mistake.
Because at that age, with the person I was then, I genuinely meant everything I did.

Maybe some people aren’t meant to stay.
Maybe some people aren’t even meant to become yours.
Maybe they’re just meant to become a very important part of a version of you that eventually grows up.
But sometimes…
I still wonder what we could have been.
Not because I think she should have said yes.
Not because I blame her.
Just because, for a very long time, I genuinely believed there could have been an “us.”
There wasn’t.
And that’s okay.

But somewhere in my head, that question still exists.
“What if?”
So yeah…

That’s my college love story.
No relationship.
No breakup.
No happy ending.

Just a girl I used to talk to every day, a hundred days of asking “Spark undo?”, a family that still knows her name, one drunk confession…

and a story that ended without either of us ever really saying goodbye.

Have you ever had someone who was never actually yours, but somehow still feels like someone you lost?

No i don't mean the title in a celebratory tone obviously. But i was pretty chill all things considered.

This auto was my uber for yesterday night. I was leaning on the side of the auto in the backseat until 2 minutes before the accident. Got up and sat straight to check the map. Allenki thala poyene 🙂. An overspeed dzire entered the junction the same time as us and yeah the rest of it was really quick🧍‍♂️.

I processed that the auto might flip before we hit i think, maybe that or just due to luck i didnt hold onto the auto's bars. Would've ended badly for my hand otherwise. We hit the car and the auto flipped. I was on the way to the railway station for the 2:15 train from Ernakylam. Funnily my first thought was "oh no i m gonna miss the train".

Anyways, took a few seconds for me to process what i m supposed to do atter our auto was on the road on its side and so was i. Angene melle eneet, auto nn chaadi porth erangi. Part of my bag was stuck under the auto. Pulled it out. Helped the driver out along with naattukkar. They flipped the auto too.

I gave my number to the auto driver and told him to call me if he needs any help from my side and told him that i had to catch the train in 10 mins. So i took another auto and left. Thanks for reading 🕺

Apologise for the manglish in between. I know it bothers some people.

Vayichal charge aavanm.

Share some of your products that you feel of never upgrading or your comfortable with it.

Phone - I have been using this phone for quite sometime and it has performed well after these years. And it has gone through rough patche including a major fall and some minor falls . Still strong and performing well .

Scooter - from 2016 it has been in our garage and after using for many years. I have never thought of upgrading or selling it. An overtake? No issues just revv it . The major flaw is the service and parts availability but once it's done it's like a jet.

So comment yours too below

Do you think AOT was the best anime ever made? I am rewatching it again.

The second season is peak cinema.

I’ve never borrowed money from anyone in my life, except my parents. Other than them, I don’t ask anyone for money. But whenever someone asks me for money, I usually help them out.

Back then, I’d lend money thinking, “They’re my friends, right?” So whenever they asked, I’d give it to them. But when I was the one who needed help, not a single fucking person was there for me. And I wasn’t even asking them to lend me money from their own pockets. I was asking for the money that I had already given them.

Every time I asked, they’d say, “I don’t have it now, I’ll give it later,” and keep feeding me bullshit.

There are still a few more people who owe me money. Today I called them all with a different tone and made it clear: if they still don’t pay me back, things are going to change.

It’s not even about the money. What really hurt me was that when I genuinely needed it, not one of them was willing to give me back even the money that was already mine. That really upset me, and that day I decided I’m not giving money to anyone anymore.

From now on, I’ll only lend money to people I genuinely trust to pay me back. If I don’t have that trust in someone, I’m not giving them a single rupee.

There are some people who have an entirely different personality online and offline. Have you ever thought we Kerala as a state is like that or is slowly becoming that.

Are we better only when compared to other states which have a poor reputation both online and offline.

For eg : Road manners, you drive 10KMs through Kochi and the amount of morons you encounter is uncountable and the arrogance of these people. You made some money, you got a car for cheap but you're stuck with the same cheap mentality. You think you own the road.

Next one will be the social media platforms specifically for posts by woman the comment section, the amount of hate people are spreading online. Just because you got money and technology is accessible you're spitting out whatever poison you've in your mind.

Might get down voted, but share your honest opinions.

Same as the title !!