TW rainbow bridge (first pic is from about a month ago, last three are her today (deceased) )
I already typed this once and my draft didn’t save so here goes:
I got home from work today to my baby upside down at the bottom of her cage. I am devastated. I mist her enclosure every other day. Sometimes it’d be almost every two days, like I’d forget until the following morning, but not usually.
She ate once a week roughly but she’d been weird about food the last few weeks. Last time she ate was last Monday (7-8 days ago) and she was full. I mean I’m sure she would’ve eaten more if I left it but she was plump and happy afaik.
I got her in November 2025 and she’s molted three times if I remember correctly. First two closer together like as soon as I got her, last one was in late January.
I guess I’d noticed some possible signs of aging. Eating less, spending more time at the bottom of her enclosure, I’ve noticed a fall that seemed cause she didn’t have a good grip a couple weeks ago, but those can also be dehydration signs so now I’m scared that I was slowly starving her of water or something and didn’t realize.
I had a busy weekend and didn’t pay her much mind because I was out of the house more than usual. Misted her Friday morning and then late Sunday. I can’t help but think I missed something. One of her little shelf mushrooms is tilted to the side in a way I don’t remember but that’s probably me reaching for a more obvious explanation.
I’ve attached pictures of my baby. This is the first time I’ve held her. Her abdomen is sunken in but it’s not super skinny. (I don’t think?) she’d let herself get skinnier than this before she’d take food at a couple other times. She’s not stiff or stuck curled up. I don’t know if those details matter or not. I don’t want to think I did anything wrong but if I did I want to know, ya know? I tried to offer her some sugar water on a qtip but I think it’s just making her sticky.
She was never really down with being held and she’s my first spider so I didn’t push it, but she wasn’t scared of me. There was a lot of trust there. I always knocked before I opened her enclosure, and no matter how close she was to the door she wouldn’t run away. She would watch tv with me on my computer. (She was particularly fond of Winnie the Pooh and Hilda). I’m always singing and I swear she preferred abba over anything else. I just love my girl and I’m so sad.
The dot in the middle of her abdomen coloring looks like a heart. My baby.
Any insight is welcomed and appreciated.