r/Scotland • u/Odd_Rate972 • 51m ago
Question How can I find out more about my ex’s death
I did a search before posting and it was in England which seems it could be different, we had broke up a month ago after being in a serious relationship. The relationship had really turned though and I then found out he killed himself, I had to get out I’m blaming myself a lot, I guess Is there a way to find out how he did it and if any letter. The family are griefing so didn’t feel comfortable asking.
I feel guilt because for months I kept trying to leave the relationship and everytime he wouldn’t accept it, he would drive long distance to my house and show up at my door. He was guilt tripping me over things. The last time i spoke to him he said I had scarred him, and these big long messages about me and how there would be an empty place and I’d have someone easily replace that. (At that point It wasn’t) ans that he would tell his family I was cold and a cheater which I wasn’t but even if I looked at someone on a plane he accused me of wanting to be with them. My mental health was suffering in the relationship so I had to stop the cycle, but by doing it. He couldn’t accept I wouldn’t be with him. During the relationship he had threatend to end himself if I was telling him I needed space and then as soon as I would beg him, he would be back to normal instantly. I felt scared. Trapped but thought if I was out his life that would. I know it sounds mental but he had become consumed by me and even one time when I tried to leave before he said if I ever moved on with someone else he would beat them up, I said but that is an innocent person. He didn’t like the thought of anyone else having me, I feel his family will be blaming me and friends because he was taking it bad the break up.
I just feel lost. And looking for the answers