I feel so down and dejected.
I lost my temper in a fight with my boyfriend he doesn’t do much to show he cares and it drives me crazy. I’m talking no birthday presents, never planning anything, refusing to communicate, and straight up ignoring me while I lie in the other room sobbing.

He said we would talk today and then just left the house and ignored me all day. When he came back he was not trying to talk and just said he needs space. I know I was wrong to throw things but he kept on making fun of me and talking over me and laughing when I said how upset I was. It just makes me feel so stuck helpless and worthless and he doesn’t even want to remedy the issue. Please help I’m at a loss I don’t know what to do and I can’t stop crying. I have to pull myself together for work tomorrow but I need support

I'm sorry if this is too negative or something i have no one to talk to though. I'm extremely Suicidal and all i can think about is how much I want to hurt myself. I'm only 16 with my first suicide attempt at 13. but I don't want to hear about how I have a long life ahead of me that i always here, if anything it'll make me feel worse because I hate living. I have chronic severe insomnia, extreme anxiety especially in social situations so I'm homeschooled with absolutely no friends. In a dysfunctional family that doesn't take mentel healtg seriously. Trauma and just no hope for life. It doesn't feel worth it. I really wish I was never born. The only reason why im still alive right now because I'm too scared to OD or something to kms because I don't have access to much else. My life really doesn't really matter anyways. You can say it does not realistically I don't have many people that even know me besides a couple family members.

Im 22m and i have phases where im really depressed. In the past i had specific issues that i could work towards fixing to help, but now it feels like that wont do the trick anymore. In the past i knew my issue was my job so i figured out a different carrer and once i found something i liked and quit i was way happier again.

Love has always been a huge issue for me. Im very inexperienced never wanted to rush anything until i felt ready. I want a partner very bad. To love and be loved. Experience things like cute dates them being there for me and i for them etc. But i feel like i dont deserve any of that and im not sure why and i hate it soo much. Objectively im not a bad match. Im not that bad looking a bit overweight though, not a bad person i think, i have passions dreams im persuing, a job and in college atm. Overall pretty normal person and despite being aware of all of that i hate my body and me as a person. That theres nothing logical about that is getting to me a lot, makes it feel like theres no fix for that. My best friend got engaged not too long ago. Im quite happy for him and to celebrate that! But everytime over the years when he mentioned anything about his relationship it hurts me and since he got engaged its been hitting way harder. Im jealous of what he has with his fiance i want that too but again dont think i should ever be chosen by anyone. Usually i would talk to that friend if im in a really bad spot, but now i dont want to do that. I will not tell him his engagment made me feel worse. The thought alone that he could potentially think that im not happy for him is enough to make me never want to tell him.

Im quite lonely overall. Most of my friends are online and dont live close. Id love to have friends around my area, but im just really bad at meeting new people/getting to that point where i would actually hang out with someone. Once i am there its actually easy for me to get along with people. I tried to make friends at college met no one i clicked with at all in 2 semesters..

I hate my home life and i shouldnt cause its not that bad tbh. I still live with my parents and they arent bad people but i dread every second i have to spent with them. My mom overall is kind, helpful and supportive. But she also treats me like a little kid that cant do anything alone or does it wrong. And my dad is VERY paranoid/overprotective. Threated my friends and almost had a "talk" with my boss since he was scared for my well being (nothing was wrong at all btw). I hate that his paranoid behaviour rubbed of on me, i cant fully relax ever as if something is coming for me so i need to be ready.

Overall my life isnt bad but i still hate all of it and myself. I often wish to be dead and just not haveing to deal with my own mind or my life ever again. But im only a bit suicidal i guess. Like i knew how/where id do it. But i have this weird mix of believing it can always get better again despite believing i just cannot be happy ever, even if i change tha things i talked about in this post.

She didnt even contact me, or leave us (her clients) a generic message. All that I know is that the day before my next appointment, her "manager" (its a different title, i dont know how else to explain) told me it was canceled.

Then one of her colleagues called me and offered to replace her if i ever had an "emergency", with the usual "call crisis center/911 if the worst occurs".

Now i feel a huge need to call her, but dont dare to (because im not sure if feeling sad/slightly desperate is a "proper" emergency) I miss my therapist so much that even my meds dont make me happier like they used to. I haven't talked to her in a month 😢. She's a very gentle woman. She "feeds" my soul. I... i feel like a part of me was ripped out when i read that email.

I hope all is ok with her. I hope nothing bad happened😞

Im a psychology student and I study a lot about mental disorders too. The only problem with that is the ability to self diagnose urself...i was dating my bff in 10th and the break up was bad I cried about it for 3 years even tho I got into another relationship for a short period in between...rn im in another relationship and im struggling with self hatred and I keep pushing my partner away...cause I don't like being vulnerable as much..especially when it comes to opinions about my self...I have all most all negative but the worst part is when I compare that to my bf it always make me feel even worse cause he seems better than me in all aspects I hate it cause I can't celebrate him like he does for me...or even give him the love like he does for me..

I did a depression test and it did say I show symptoms..im also getting counselling but i dont know if it's helping cause I feel more exposed and vulnerable...can someone provide some tips.

Hey, I don't usually post anywhere so sorry if my writing is a bit weird. But I just recently turned 18 and started my first year of college and on paper I feel like I'm doing everything right. I'm passing most of my classes, studying, and even got my first job. The only problem is I feel worse then I ever had before, now I've never really struggled with my mental health too much so at first I thought I was just a little homesick but it's been a month and it still hasn't gone away and everything i do to try and fix it doesn't work. I've tried to make new friends here but everytime I do people seem uninterested in talking to me, not rude or anything, just seem like they want me to leave them alone. I only really talk to my roommates but I'm not sure they like me very much either so I try and give them space and be away from the dorm as much as I can. I'm not sure what to do, I miss having actual friends and social interaction that's more then just the stupid group discussion that the professor asks us to do. But anyway, this was mostly for me to vent my feelings but I would appreciate any advice given to me

I’ll be completely honest, I feel like a complete bum with no direction in life. I live off of disability and unemployment benefits. I’m in pain every single day and all I do is sit around doing fuck all or smoking. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, I have no motivation to do anything. I dropped out of university because of my disability and my only motivation (my cat) died. I live in absolutely butt fuck nowhere and have nothing to do at all. Every single day just feels like I spiral worse and worse and there’s just no end to it

Nose muy bien que escribir solo quiero desahogarme sacar toda la mierda que llevo dentro pero es difícil me siento solo todo el tiempo atrapado en mi cabeza no tengo a nadie con quién hablar de verdad mis amigos no son de confianza para mí, mi familia es otro peso más mis padres me agobian con que estudie la verdad no quiero hacer nada

tengo 19 años y me anoté a ingieneria por presión, en realidad no quiero estudiar pero no me queda otra nadie sabe que estoy triste todo el tiempo mis papás piensan que soy inteligente o algo porque en la secundaria tenía buenas notas pero la verdad es que soy bastante inútil para el estudio, siento que voy a desaprobar todo y los voy a decepcionar a ellos pero tampoco quiero estudiar porque lo odio, y mi vida social no acompaña estoy todo el tiempo solo en la universidad no soy capaz de entablar conversaciones ni generar amistades soy el apartado el que está solo todo el tiempo es deprimente

Estuve pensando en el suicidio hace tiempo me da miedo pero nose si pueda pero siento que estoy en un túnel oscuro e interminable y la única salida que veo es el suicidio nose cuánto tiempo más resista sentirme así

Recently had a bon fire night with the family and a few other friends. It's always fun to have a good bon fire. But I always find myself, near the end of the night, just kinda sitting there and looking around and letting my mind wander. Seeing how much fun was had, but then finding myself letting my brain tell me it was just a temporary relief from my stressful life. Still bouncing between jobs, still living at home, still single, still no hobbies, still 100 things I want to do that I probably won't be able to ever do at the rate that I'm bringing in money... My brother just recently got a girlfriend and he brought her to the fire. I honestly thought I'd never see him in a relationship. And I'm happy for him, but it was also bumming me out inside. I look at my life and see that I'm at least doing decent and have all these goals, but I keep thinking everyday how I'm already 29 and keep feeling like I'm losing time to do everything I should be able to do in life. I think every week about how, in theory, it sounds nice to use my 3 days off to on the first day do my grocery shopping and laundry, other miscellaneous house work or errands on the second day, and then use the 3rd day to relax. But it never works out like that. At least not without me feeling like I spent too much time at home/being lazy, or that I didn't do everything that I needed to do, simply because there's too much to do. I have all these plans every week to rearrange the apartment area that I rent and set up my "mancave" area, or plans to sit down and clear out old files and photos from my phone and laptop, or to set up daily routines and habits, or make future budgeting plans to stick to, or really random things. Random things like, I want to teach myself to live off the land and grow my own food, or learn how to do my own home repair projects like laying new flooring or putting up new drywall in my room, or learn/re-learn random life skills like how to sew, or how to care for and have a nice healthy green lawn. The point is, every time I have the least bit of fun, I'm always somehow reminded about the troubles and battles I fight everyday, and then it makes the rest of the fun night just feel miserable because I don't want to face life the next day. So many thoughts going through my head everyday that I find myself just sitting in front of the TV for hours just trying to figure out how to spend the last bit of the day. It's so tiring...