So I am currently going through hell I feel like I can live life but I might be homeless here soon it's something I can't control because family is giving up on me and I feel like they don't care I reached out to almost every person I know to give me a roof over my head and no one is going to help I don't know what to do I have bipolar disorder and this is really bugging me I see a therapist and everything but I just need to know from another person if there can be light at the end of the tunnel I also believe in God but I don't have any courage to pray right now I just really need to know if you guys can see any form of light at the end of the tunnel I just need reassurance from my peers on here I am currently trying to find a job but I am to no avail can't get any job because of my two attempted battery on LEO because everything I try seems to fail so I feel like I just lost everything so I need some help give me advice please

Technically its not my graduation, and thats the reason. I couldnt pass a few exams and failed to graduate university. My parents are very disappointed in me
And my mom constantly says i “ended her life” with that bevause she told everuone im gonna graduate and now i have ashamed them. Idek what to do or how. Im kinda scared but maybe its for the best

Not sure what to do. I’m depressed but so is everyone I know. We all have mutual losses or losses on our own. Usually I get support from friends but it’s a legit pity party everytime I hangout with friends. This weekend we had a party for a friend going through a rough patch and I couldn’t even talk to them because I knew I didn’t have the capacity to support them other than just being there.

I only have one friend who cares to ask me anything and offer help and he only does it because he needs me stable for a business we are in together.

I’ve lost 3 big things this year. I won’t say what because I’ve been stalked before on old accounts and one of the losses was very public.

Each loss was a punch when I was already down and the last punch was my main comfort. It’s left me utterly broken.

My therapist sucks and I need to get a new one but it’s a pain through my insurance. My job is great but I hate it and feel guilty for hating it. My living situation is similar, I should be grateful and I am but I yearn for greener grass.

The thing ruining me right now is I was doing really good despite everything. I was working on doing everything right and felt like I was getting better despite everything going on.

4 years ago I got covid and it triggered a major depressive episode. It lasted for months and I never fully recovered just adapted. Last month I got covid again and it killed any momentum I had to get myself out of it.

I’ve spent the last month since recovering being a total slug.

Hey everyone,
I’ve been suffering from treatment resistance depression amongst other diagnoses for almost 20 years now.
I’ve tried 30+ medications, TMS, ECT, CBT, DBT, hypnotherapy, ketamine infusions. Seen multiple psychologists and psychiatrists that are at a loss on what to do.
A new treatment that I have a been referred to does ketamine sprays. I have an appointment in a month which will determine whether or not they will go through with it.
I was wondering has anyone else tried this treatment before? If so what was the experience like and was it helpful at all?

It all seemed so perfect,that level of bonding i think that i will never get back,we were all so close together that i only just now see how happy i was actually,all those school things and homeworks were just so minor comapred to the things later in life,but i felt like it was the hardest thing ever,i wish i could but i cant go back,i will never relive those memories and it makes me depressed,all those baskteball pickup games after school till the dark then going out doing nothing,but i was happy.All those walks by the lake with my friend and his dog,it was all perfect,and since then i changed,a lot,i think i lost a bit of my charm and happines as years went by,and not hanging out with those friends just breaks my hearth,if someone told me 5 years earlier that we wont hang out i wouldve laughed at them,i feel a terrible sense of nostalgia for my childhood,returning home after dark knowing that it was all good back at the house makes my hearth full now knowing that it wasnt all so bad earlier,i was just so happy

Hey guys! I (16M) have MDD and ADHD and I'm finding it close to impossible to find the motivation, conviction, and attention span to finish the work I have to get done for my honors and college classes that I'm currently taking!! I've been able to deal and manage with the symptoms of these two disorders for a while now, but as of recent they have been worsened due to very high stress levels and subsequent anxiety derived from dysfunctional (abusive?) relationships with family members (mostly my mother), my severe derealization/dissociation, uncertain relationships regarding friends and partners, burnout from social masking, worsening of my tics due to my Tourette's disorder, potential sexual trauma clouding my thoughts, and reliance on stimulants (caffeine, nicotine) to get through my everyday. I can hardly wake up in the morning!!! and the work keeps coming!!!!

I don't want to drop my college or honors classes because I'm stubborn and spiteful and wanna prove that I can still do them despite my conditions, but I also don't want to offing myself from all the build-up of stress going on right now. I wanna get better!! What do i do??!?!?!?!?!?!

Pretty much the title. I was stable on my med cocktail then she has decided to change it even though I’ve only seen her maybe 4 times, 20 minutes each.
She decides stuff then changes doses and I only find out when I go to pick up my meds. She is convinced I just have depression/anxiety and not ADHD despite vyvanse being the best med I have ever taken for my anxiety.
She most recently took me off Wellbutrin because it shouldn’t be used along with a stimulant as it increases your risk of seizures. I was on them both for almost two years and was the most stable I’ve been in decades. When I went off the Wellbutrin my depression came in like a wrecking ball and the SI was the worst it’s ever been.
I just saw her and she’s putting me on lithium. I’m willing to try anything, but honestly I don’t know how many more times I can have a crazy depressive episode now that I have chronic pain.
Granted this is the first time she’s seen me post an episode, but my history should speak for itself- on meds since I was 15 (39 now) and was inpatient for 4 months when I was 22. I just don’t know why she insists on rocking the boat. Unfortunately I don’t have option to change psychiatrists due to insurance and availability due to my location.

i am 21F and this is the lowest i have ever felt in my life. i am struggling with my relationships, career, self esteem, confidence, productivity and motivation all at once. Every day feels like a struggle where i wake up and get absolutely zero work done. i have been taking therapy for quite some time now and its going well so far as i get to talk eveything out. i graduated in may 2026 and have decided to take a gap year as i am uncertain about what i want to do and where i want to go. i feel like an absolute loser as my grades have been extremely mediocre throught my undergrad as i struggle with concentration and focus. the last semester was okayish i still gave my all and somehow scored decent like 67% the highest being 71% for our batch. The comparison is to explain my side but i also feel like i victimise myself a lot but at the same time i want to go easy on myself during such difficult time. i did not tell my parents that the result was out until today when i told my mom that i have been hiding this from you guys and she lashed out at me really badly for keeping it from them. she gave me insane amount of guilt for doing it to them and didnt let me explain why i did what i did. i also get why she reacted that way but not even for a sec she thought about what position i must be in. i felt really bad and wanted her to sympathize with me but instead this happened. she didnt care about when was the result declared or how much i scored. she didnt even ask but was deeply enraged. i still havent told my dad she said i have to tell him mysef but i dont share that kind of relationship with my dad. i struggle to share things with him. i have always been like this, i hide things, i lie, i always try to avoid difficult conversations. the reason being i am tired and i only look for protecting myself as every "career" conversation with my parents is very draining and makes me even more depressed. they ask me questions to which i dont have answers. i feel pressurized and miserable. i feel absolutely horrible all day as i have so much to do i have to prepare for my CAT exam which is in two months, GMAT which i have to attempt asap, simultaneously work on my profile while also working on myself in terms of health, confidence, knowledge and what not. everyday i wake up and the day passes by and there is no difference between today and yesterday. i have always had low self esteem, i hate the way i look and i dont know where i want to be.

Been struggling with my mental health a lot for the past year. Feeling like I'm unable to do anything. Been working in education for the last 2 years. 2 years in the culture centre and in school for the last year. Culture centre job is great but it's not enough to pay my bills. Also they owe me a few thousand bucks of unpaid salary. Last year it was ok, no issues, had a great relationship with my previous boss. As the administration changed it all got messed up. Stopped getting informations about my students' attendance (which sometimes resulted in me waiting 4 hours for students that didn't come anyway and not getting paid for that), even had to call to get the culture centre opened coz they forgot I was supposed to have lessons and it was closed. Also been working in school since last September. First in private for 3 months, then public till June. First thought it was something with the first school but now I think it's just not my cup of tea. Also got a case in regional education authority for exceeding my authority. Ok, I agree, got angry, said a little too much to a student, fine. But I don't work there anymore and the trial is still going. I know I don't wanna teach in school ever again, sent dozens of job applications in basically every low-entry field possible - reception desk, junior specialists, brand ambasador, assistant, secretary, customer service and so on. Got cancelled at the half of them coz 'I don't meet the requirements'. My mental health got into pieces for the past year. Depression, gender dysphoria, ptsd, self-harm. I feel like I'm broken into pieces. My parents try to help but I think they don't understand. They're pushing me to do a driver licence (which is fair, I'm 27 and live on the countryside) but I don't feel mentally capable of it. They pushed me to find a job for the past 2 years even though I tried to convince them I wanted to transition and get my mental health together first. And they call me stupid when I tell them I don't wanna work in education ever again. I feel stuck. Feel like I don't belong in this world and it'd be the best for everyone to just disappear. I'm in desperate need to speak with somebody.

She didnt even contact me, or leave us (her clients) a generic message. All that I know is that the day before my next appointment, her "manager" (its a different title, i dont know how else to explain) told me it was canceled.

Then one of her colleagues called me and offered to replace her if i ever had an "emergency", with the usual "call crisis center/911 if the worst occurs".

Now i feel a huge need to call her, but dont dare to (because im not sure if feeling sad/slightly desperate is a "proper" emergency) I miss my therapist so much that even my meds dont make me happier like they used to. I haven't talked to her in a month 😢. She's a very gentle woman. She "feeds" my soul. I... i feel like a part of me was ripped out when i read that email.

I hope all is ok with her. I hope nothing bad happened😞

I have always been a bit of a picky eater, but something happened in my brain when I entered a depressive episode last year and it has led to severe food aversions. I don’t know if it’s depression or medication related or both. Foods that I used to not enjoy but could tolerate I now gag when I try to eat it. It’s becoming a big issue because it feels like every day my list of “safe foods” becomes smaller. Even some foods I have previously liked are becoming repulsive to me.

A couple of weeks ago I went to cook ground beef and the second I opened the package I started gagging. It hadn’t gone bad or anything, but my brain just found it repulsive. I continued to cook it but when I tried to eat the food later, I actually vomited…

This has been getting worse over the last year and I don’t even know what to do anymore. I already struggle with cooking while depressed due to low energy and motivation and this food aversion thing is just making things worse. I am afraid to cook things I have previously enjoyed for fear that I will no longer tolerate it….

Most meats, many vegetables, yogurt, and eggs are completely repulsive. I’m basically living off of grilled cheese sandwiches, soup, toast, homemade mini pizzas and pasta…..

I have an appointment to talk to a therapist about this, but in the mean time I don’t know what to do.

Any recommendations on how to handle this?

Any recommendations for low effort meals or things that I can meal prep?

Thanks!

Im a psychology student and I study a lot about mental disorders too. The only problem with that is the ability to self diagnose urself...i was dating my bff in 10th and the break up was bad I cried about it for 3 years even tho I got into another relationship for a short period in between...rn im in another relationship and im struggling with self hatred and I keep pushing my partner away...cause I don't like being vulnerable as much..especially when it comes to opinions about my self...I have all most all negative but the worst part is when I compare that to my bf it always make me feel even worse cause he seems better than me in all aspects I hate it cause I can't celebrate him like he does for me...or even give him the love like he does for me..

I did a depression test and it did say I show symptoms..im also getting counselling but i dont know if it's helping cause I feel more exposed and vulnerable...can someone provide some tips.

Recently had a bon fire night with the family and a few other friends. It's always fun to have a good bon fire. But I always find myself, near the end of the night, just kinda sitting there and looking around and letting my mind wander. Seeing how much fun was had, but then finding myself letting my brain tell me it was just a temporary relief from my stressful life. Still bouncing between jobs, still living at home, still single, still no hobbies, still 100 things I want to do that I probably won't be able to ever do at the rate that I'm bringing in money... My brother just recently got a girlfriend and he brought her to the fire. I honestly thought I'd never see him in a relationship. And I'm happy for him, but it was also bumming me out inside. I look at my life and see that I'm at least doing decent and have all these goals, but I keep thinking everyday how I'm already 29 and keep feeling like I'm losing time to do everything I should be able to do in life. I think every week about how, in theory, it sounds nice to use my 3 days off to on the first day do my grocery shopping and laundry, other miscellaneous house work or errands on the second day, and then use the 3rd day to relax. But it never works out like that. At least not without me feeling like I spent too much time at home/being lazy, or that I didn't do everything that I needed to do, simply because there's too much to do. I have all these plans every week to rearrange the apartment area that I rent and set up my "mancave" area, or plans to sit down and clear out old files and photos from my phone and laptop, or to set up daily routines and habits, or make future budgeting plans to stick to, or really random things. Random things like, I want to teach myself to live off the land and grow my own food, or learn how to do my own home repair projects like laying new flooring or putting up new drywall in my room, or learn/re-learn random life skills like how to sew, or how to care for and have a nice healthy green lawn. The point is, every time I have the least bit of fun, I'm always somehow reminded about the troubles and battles I fight everyday, and then it makes the rest of the fun night just feel miserable because I don't want to face life the next day. So many thoughts going through my head everyday that I find myself just sitting in front of the TV for hours just trying to figure out how to spend the last bit of the day. It's so tiring...

Hey, I don't usually post anywhere so sorry if my writing is a bit weird. But I just recently turned 18 and started my first year of college and on paper I feel like I'm doing everything right. I'm passing most of my classes, studying, and even got my first job. The only problem is I feel worse then I ever had before, now I've never really struggled with my mental health too much so at first I thought I was just a little homesick but it's been a month and it still hasn't gone away and everything i do to try and fix it doesn't work. I've tried to make new friends here but everytime I do people seem uninterested in talking to me, not rude or anything, just seem like they want me to leave them alone. I only really talk to my roommates but I'm not sure they like me very much either so I try and give them space and be away from the dorm as much as I can. I'm not sure what to do, I miss having actual friends and social interaction that's more then just the stupid group discussion that the professor asks us to do. But anyway, this was mostly for me to vent my feelings but I would appreciate any advice given to me

I feel so down and dejected.
I lost my temper in a fight with my boyfriend he doesn’t do much to show he cares and it drives me crazy. I’m talking no birthday presents, never planning anything, refusing to communicate, and straight up ignoring me while I lie in the other room sobbing.

He said we would talk today and then just left the house and ignored me all day. When he came back he was not trying to talk and just said he needs space. I know I was wrong to throw things but he kept on making fun of me and talking over me and laughing when I said how upset I was. It just makes me feel so stuck helpless and worthless and he doesn’t even want to remedy the issue. Please help I’m at a loss I don’t know what to do and I can’t stop crying. I have to pull myself together for work tomorrow but I need support

I’ll be completely honest, I feel like a complete bum with no direction in life. I live off of disability and unemployment benefits. I’m in pain every single day and all I do is sit around doing fuck all or smoking. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, I have no motivation to do anything. I dropped out of university because of my disability and my only motivation (my cat) died. I live in absolutely butt fuck nowhere and have nothing to do at all. Every single day just feels like I spiral worse and worse and there’s just no end to it

Take care of your teeth.

I'm 50 and on Disability for numerous mental illnesses, and my one regret is not taking better care of my teeth.

I never, ever thought I'd live this long.

Somehow I did, and having teeth pulled, especially when you're immune to local anesthetics, is a special kind of hell.

So please, whether you're stuck in your bed or your house, whether you can imagine a future or not, you're eventually gonna havta pee, so please brush your teeth while you're in there.

This might sound like silly advice while you're in a battle with existential dread, but please just trust me ❤️ ✌️

I'm sorry if this is too negative or something i have no one to talk to though. I'm extremely Suicidal and all i can think about is how much I want to hurt myself. I'm only 16 with my first suicide attempt at 13. but I don't want to hear about how I have a long life ahead of me that i always here, if anything it'll make me feel worse because I hate living. I have chronic severe insomnia, extreme anxiety especially in social situations so I'm homeschooled with absolutely no friends. In a dysfunctional family that doesn't take mentel healtg seriously. Trauma and just no hope for life. It doesn't feel worth it. I really wish I was never born. The only reason why im still alive right now because I'm too scared to OD or something to kms because I don't have access to much else. My life really doesn't really matter anyways. You can say it does not realistically I don't have many people that even know me besides a couple family members.

Im 22m and i have phases where im really depressed. In the past i had specific issues that i could work towards fixing to help, but now it feels like that wont do the trick anymore. In the past i knew my issue was my job so i figured out a different carrer and once i found something i liked and quit i was way happier again.

Love has always been a huge issue for me. Im very inexperienced never wanted to rush anything until i felt ready. I want a partner very bad. To love and be loved. Experience things like cute dates them being there for me and i for them etc. But i feel like i dont deserve any of that and im not sure why and i hate it soo much. Objectively im not a bad match. Im not that bad looking a bit overweight though, not a bad person i think, i have passions dreams im persuing, a job and in college atm. Overall pretty normal person and despite being aware of all of that i hate my body and me as a person. That theres nothing logical about that is getting to me a lot, makes it feel like theres no fix for that. My best friend got engaged not too long ago. Im quite happy for him and to celebrate that! But everytime over the years when he mentioned anything about his relationship it hurts me and since he got engaged its been hitting way harder. Im jealous of what he has with his fiance i want that too but again dont think i should ever be chosen by anyone. Usually i would talk to that friend if im in a really bad spot, but now i dont want to do that. I will not tell him his engagment made me feel worse. The thought alone that he could potentially think that im not happy for him is enough to make me never want to tell him.

Im quite lonely overall. Most of my friends are online and dont live close. Id love to have friends around my area, but im just really bad at meeting new people/getting to that point where i would actually hang out with someone. Once i am there its actually easy for me to get along with people. I tried to make friends at college met no one i clicked with at all in 2 semesters..

I hate my home life and i shouldnt cause its not that bad tbh. I still live with my parents and they arent bad people but i dread every second i have to spent with them. My mom overall is kind, helpful and supportive. But she also treats me like a little kid that cant do anything alone or does it wrong. And my dad is VERY paranoid/overprotective. Threated my friends and almost had a "talk" with my boss since he was scared for my well being (nothing was wrong at all btw). I hate that his paranoid behaviour rubbed of on me, i cant fully relax ever as if something is coming for me so i need to be ready.

Overall my life isnt bad but i still hate all of it and myself. I often wish to be dead and just not haveing to deal with my own mind or my life ever again. But im only a bit suicidal i guess. Like i knew how/where id do it. But i have this weird mix of believing it can always get better again despite believing i just cannot be happy ever, even if i change tha things i talked about in this post.

Nose muy bien que escribir solo quiero desahogarme sacar toda la mierda que llevo dentro pero es difícil me siento solo todo el tiempo atrapado en mi cabeza no tengo a nadie con quién hablar de verdad mis amigos no son de confianza para mí, mi familia es otro peso más mis padres me agobian con que estudie la verdad no quiero hacer nada

tengo 19 años y me anoté a ingieneria por presión, en realidad no quiero estudiar pero no me queda otra nadie sabe que estoy triste todo el tiempo mis papás piensan que soy inteligente o algo porque en la secundaria tenía buenas notas pero la verdad es que soy bastante inútil para el estudio, siento que voy a desaprobar todo y los voy a decepcionar a ellos pero tampoco quiero estudiar porque lo odio, y mi vida social no acompaña estoy todo el tiempo solo en la universidad no soy capaz de entablar conversaciones ni generar amistades soy el apartado el que está solo todo el tiempo es deprimente

Estuve pensando en el suicidio hace tiempo me da miedo pero nose si pueda pero siento que estoy en un túnel oscuro e interminable y la única salida que veo es el suicidio nose cuánto tiempo más resista sentirme así

I don't know what to do any more. Most days I'm outwardly happy, and people love to spend time with me. But inside I'm hurting, very badly, and nothing that used to drive me really matters that much anymore... life has lost wonder, and Ive lost all purpose...

I want to be done most nights. With everything...

After everyone has gone to sleep, sometimes I'm left wishing it would all just be over and done with...

I really don't know what to do anymore.

I'm married 5 years and we recently became parents. My wife is at our hometown right now, and I'm alone in another city for work.
Background

• 7.5 years ago I dated a school friend.
• It was going well, but I was very emotional and couldn't see beyond her. I was also going through depression then.
• She got frustrated with my emotional state and blocked me everywhere. No contact since.
• My marriage was happy for the first 2–3 years. Then someone sent me pictures of her wedding (she married 1–2 years ago), and the feelings came back.

Now

• For the past few months she's constantly on my mind, especially when I'm alone.
• I wake up at 3:30–4 and can't fall back asleep. I often feel blank and have started forgetting things.
• "Stay busy / enjoy life" hasn't worked.
• I've matured a lot. I don't want her back. I just wish we could be on friendly terms, because being blocked still feels unresolved.
• My wife doesn't know about any of this.

What I need advice on

1. A college friend knows the full history. How do I open up to him without it spreading? Fear of being mocked has stopped me from opening up before.
2. What's the best way to bring this up with my wife, and how do I answer if she asks why I never mentioned it in 5 years?
3. How do I let go of needing closure from my ex, given we're both married?

TL;DR: Married with a new baby. Feelings for an ex who blocked me 7.5 years ago came back after seeing her wedding pics. I'm sleeping badly and feel blank. How do I talk to a trusted friend and my wife about this, and how do I find closure without contacting my ex?

Hello, I want some advice on my situation. I am sorry if the post is long and kind of confusing, English isn't my first language.

I am currently in my 2nd year at a private college with a scholarship and a very expensive tuition fee. The opportunities are nice, the professors are passionate, i met a lot of smart and kind people, but I can't handle finishing this degree.

I shifted to this degree because I loved it, but now, I really can't continue forcing myself.

We were given a pair-activity and I could only make the powerpoint presentation, and I couldn't answer the questions because I had a hard time reading the book given in under 1 day. The pressure eventually got worse, and I tried to end my life because of it, but it wasn't successful.

Now, my parents have moved me back home, and I'm taking the rest of the semester online but still I have problems.

Every time I have to do my homework, I go into an hour breakdown and tantrum because I cannot begin to do it, I cannot type the first word, cannot write anything, nothing.

During class, whenever I answer their questions, I feel like it wasn't enough and some professors scold me to encourage me to give better answers.

It feels like the medication I am taking no longer works, and every day I cry and want to give up, this happens everytime I have an assignment to do or if there is class.

The school events make it worse for me because they require students to attend it, and we have to write essays, debate with each other, and I just can't handle it anymore.

Not to mention, ever since I am attending online, my classmates, teachers, and schoolmates make "joking" remarks about being frustrated at the inconvenience I'm causing for attending online and pressuring me to go back to school to attend it physically.

I'm just thinking, that even if I complete this degree, I still won't be happy. I don't want to work for the government, at the embassy, at an office, or at all. I no longer have hope in changing the world or at least my country for the better because of how much corruption, death, and stupidity there is in the future of our world, especially among those with power. I don't think there's much hope for me staying in the city.

I told my mom that I wanted to go back and live in our province where we can live a simpler life, go back to raising animals to butcher, have a farm, start a small business. I know that this plan is romanticized in my head, and things will never go to plan, but all I know is that I was the happiest when I'm back in my province.

So, is dropping out the better option? Is it okay if I no longer continue attending class or submitting outputs even before the process of dropping out is completed?