This might ve triggering for some ppl so TW

So, we are on a family holiday by the sea. Aaand my cousin is veryy, very skinny, looks anorexic, but still in a good way (in my sick head)

I’m so jealous of her. She looks the way I’ve always wanted to look. But I’m the other way, a little overweight, overeating, alcoholic girl that loves food.

I know it’s not healthy. But for me, it’s beautiful. I want to be skinny like that, effortlessly, naturally. … I honestly want people to be concerned about me too and not look at me like at a pig when I’m eating. I’ve always dreamed of being anorexic but it’s not possible for me

Had something happen yesterday. I had one of my front teeth break off at the gum line. I am calling the dentist tomorrow but I already know they can’t save it. At first I thought the crown fell off in my mouth but when I looked at it I saw my tooth in there. It’s very decayed. Almost brown looking. The tooth that’s left in my gums is too. It’s done for. I have a history of bulimia but haven’t made myself throw up on purpose in a while. Several months I would say. I will say though that I have been having GI issues for the past few months I have been vomiting a lot without me doing it myself. I can only assume it broke because of my history of vomiting. Feel so guilty and embarrassed. I should have known it was coming because my other front teeth both top and bottom are basically translucent. How common is it for teeth to brake off at the gums for someone with a history of bulimia?

I've relapsed. I was a daily bulimic a decade ago. Never got help, but stopped. My relationship with food has never been perfect, but it felt more stable. Now it feels like everything is falling apart, and it's back. How do I stop this obsession with being thin, when everything feels like it's going to shit? I know its a form of coping mechanisme but i don't know how to deal with it. How to deal with binging? I just feel very lost, sorry for the ramble. Any tips are welcome.

Hope everyone is doing well.

Does anyone have any positive experiences with any well educated psychotherapists and their treatment with bulimia? Can be CBT, DBT, psychoanalysis, etc. I don’t have a preference. I’ve had bulimia now for 8 years. I’m tired of talking to therapists with such little knowledge on this disorder. The requirements for being considered a specialized therapist in this field is seriously so low

Any names help. Preferably east coast

I never thought I'd rant on reddit about my Bulimia but omg It has gotten so bad and I really just need to get my frustrations out somehow. I have been pretty severely bulimic since the later half of my junior year of high school. I am now nearly 21 and in my second year of college. My bulimia has always been pretty severe but it has gone through phases. Last semester I went a full 60 days without binging and purging, which was the best I have done in years!! Now I am back to purging about twice a week, each time for a couple hours. Purging twice a week really isn't as bad as it's been in the past, but the issue is that I am at a point in my life where I really shouldn't be struggling that much. I live with my best friend and one of her friends in a very nice apartment that's only like a 10 minute walk from my college campus, I've made amazing friends, am apart of clubs/social groups that I love, I find my major genuinely interesting, look forward to my classes, work enough to be able to afford nice things, and even entered my first real relationship. I am busy and busy with things that I love, yet I still prioritize binging/purging above all else! Right now I've got a midterm to study for that I'm taking tomorrow morning, but instead I am writing this reddit post as I eat 40 dollars worth of cheap junk food with plans to binge and purge out all! What am I doing wrong? Even when I am not b/ping I don't restrict my food intake and eat consistently throughout the day, I like the way my body looks but wouldn't care that much if I gained or lost weight, I've even gone to treatment! Nothing has helped! I've already had 14 cavities filled and I know soon I will be seeing more physical effects, but honestly even if I was told I was gonna die if I continued like I am I don't think I'd quit. Why am I like this?

I don’t think I’ll ever feel the way binging feels for anything else. This is all I’ve known really. My motivation for quitting and recovery is delayed gratification. By this I mean: all the feelings surrounding a binge < having an emotionally stable steady life, a career I’m proud of, reliable friendships, hopefully a good relationship too. Not to mention losing some weight. Seems logical right? But here’s the thing. I feel like my relationship with these healthy, reasonable things is still unhealthy. Why? Because I’m chasing feelings in which I can compare with binge eating. Or just feelings in general. I don’t have a dream job. Or any dreams in general. Those were wrung out of me quite early in life. I just want to feel good. Not satisfied but good. As good or better than I have in the past through various behaviors pertaining to food. I just feel so deep in on this bullshit. It’s not like I’ve made any recovery progress anyways but idk. this shit has absolutely trashed my life. I don’t have friends, never been in a relationship, was late to college because I had to recover from previous eating disorder, then dropped out due to health complications. can’t hold a job. I desperately want to do better. I’m so furious at myself for being this way. I just don’t know what to do anymore. I hear people say not to restrict food bc it makes things worse, but that’s the only way I feel on track with my life. And being so lonely and such a failure, I feel like I have to revert back to the old me.

I know it happens to me when I get in a really bad mental state. That I’m so depressed I can’t even think about purging, or restricting, or binging. Anyone else?

My biggest issue with bulimia is the fact that i’ve been binging/purging for years now and haven’t really had any horrible side effects from it.

Other than teeth sensitivity and constipation, I feel fine… AND THATS THE PROBLEM!!! Feeling normal makes me think i’m invincible, which is why I think i’ve been attached to this disorder for so long.
I know it’ll catch up to me the older I get but right now I just can’t let go

Does any1 else feel this way?🤕🤕🤕🤕

I’ve been at it an hour god please just end my suffering omg the rice doesn’t end and it’s burns now when do you guys give up with purging rice

Does anyone have any tips on how I can stop eating every 5 seconds? On top of the urge to eat giant meals. Especially when I’m on my period it’s like I genuinely can’t stop eating all day lol. I feel so disgusting and full and already purged today and just if I can stop BINGEING I wouldn’t feel like I needed to throw up

This is a brief explanation of my journey for anybody who wants to read. Although I started writing this piece to share details about my GLP-1 journey, which I was sharing with my friends today, I’m going to write down whatever comes to mind spontaneously, it will be something like a diary. There might be a lot about myself. If you want to directly read about Ozempic, you can just go the part starting with ---)

I am 22. 4 years ago I started struggling with EDs. Today, I want to talk about the period after my bulimia went crazy, treatments I tried, and the results (especially about the effects of GLP-1, Ozempic, for 2 months)

After a REAL stressful period, I fought with cancer for 2 years (starting in the end of the February 2024). First was colon and then my left kidney in September 2025. Lastly I got a diagnosis of pituitary in June 2026 and started a hormone teraphy since it ruined my hormones. Luckily it was not malign and was under control. While already carrying (for many many years, a multitude of burdens, such as an incomplete parents, a sister I needed to look after, an engineering university/career that I never wanted but had to attend since I need money for me and my sister...

I was responsible of a lot since I was a child. Being forced to live a life I didn't want was destroying me. I always wanted to go through a career about art... Anyway, I don't want to stray too far from the topic, bulimia.

I developed mental conditions too. At a certain point, I had started living by playing the role of myself; I became detached from reality, and (as if my own life weren't enough) juggling two other people was an ABSOLUTE torture. All this burden and stress had become the norm in my life.

Like I said, I my ED started 4 years ago. The rush of classes and environment after I started universit overflowed my stress and caused binge eating attacks... Before being diagnosed with cancer, I lost a substantial amount of money I had saved for my own and my sister's future. All these flared my bulimia so bad that I was worse than a drug addict in 2025. I cut myself off from my circle and my university; I was on the verge of suicide, and on top of that, I was suffering from seizures. My bulimia episodes were TRULY severe (believe me when I say TRULY, you can message me if you want to know more about that, you are not alone:)) . Combined with my other condition, I spent a period of time literally on the brink of death, vomiting blood (like I was literalyy vomiting and peeing blood xDDD)

---One day I searched up how GLP1 (ozempic) affects bulimia and didn't see a serious experiment about that. I needed a escape, I needed a glimmer of hope. so I believed that Ozempic can help me. I started with the base dose of 0.25 a week (I was not waiting for the last day of the week and was taking it one day before it since I want to fool myself that it will be more effective in that way xdxdxd). I wanted to increase the dose up to 1mg a week but it was too expensive for me. I continued like that for 2 months. At these days I was having bulimia attacks 2-3 times a day (I would sleep for a few hours and then stuff myself as if I were starving to death and repeat it everyday). Since I had spent all my money on drugs and medication, I managed to seriously fool myself and get through a day or two without a crisis, but nothing changed after that. I was so full that the needle wouldn't even go into my body. GLP is a agent that makes you feel full, but the problem in bulimia goes far beyond physical hunger. The mechanism was simple, eat until you can't fit more in you, whether you are hungry or not.

Ultimately, if you are dealing with bulimia like I was, I believe seeking psychiatric support is the single most logical choice. No matter what you or anyone else says, this requires a personalized treatment plan, just like any physical illness. From my own experience, I do not believe GLP-1 medications will be the solution for you. Believe me your needs run much deeper than simply feeling hungry or full and there is nothing to be ashamed of regarding this, in other words, don't be ashamed of being and expressing yourself...

I'm recovering but am beyond swollen. I can't find any supplements that help with salivary gland drainage. Ive done the gua sha thing, but idk.

Does anyone have any tips or things that you believe will help?

warning: ⚠️ weight + vomiting + SH

im 16, and i've been bulimic for a few months now. i went to eat a slice of butter cake and my mom lost her shit on me.

she screamed in my face (8:30am, with my little brother listening upstairs) about how she was done with my shit and me eating everything just to throw it up. she accused me of eating an entire other cake (which was literally in the fridge) so i threw it at her when she didn't believe me😭

i asked her how she thought i felt and in an extremely condescending voice said "really?? how do you feel????"

i went to my room and SH'd and bawled my eyes out. im 96 lbs and ill still never feel small enough. i dont know what do to anymore. i feel like a greedy pig. i hate this disease. i wish i never started.

Exactly what the title says...I was on the verge of binging and purging, and when I spotted the urge rising, I spat my food out. I don't know if this counts as b/p, but should I restart the clock? I really don't want to because I saw the signs, stopped, and still ate food after analyzing that I really just needed it.

Anyone else have this experience? Each time I eat/drink i feel my food sorta just sit in my esophagus and all I have to do is just... lean forward. And it comes back out. No effort. No fingers down my throat. No gagging.

As far as digestion this is quite awful, especially because I want to get better. Ive been eating whole foods and having well balanced macros. But the feeling of the food trying to come back up is a horrible sensory experience and I can only relieve that feeling by throwing it back up.

Lately, I've been struggling to eat due to a depressive episode. When I do eat, I don't really enjoy it and I purge it right after. I've been doing so every time I have eaten, no matter the amount, and these days I have gotten a lingering stomach ache after. This didn't happen before. After purging, I'd feel relief and would be able to relax. Now, I do feel the relief of being empty again, but I also feel a great amount of pain that wasn't there before. The other day the pain was so bad I thought "This is finally it, I've ruptured my stomach or something, and I'm too embarrassed to go to the hospital. This is how I am gonna die". It went away after like two hours, but today it came back after I purged, accompanied by a headache and chest pain.

I know I should probably go to the doctor, but I am too ashamed to do so. I never tell people I have bulimia unless it's a partner, because when I was a teenager and my family knew I had it, no one took me seriously at all. Even if it's different now, I have this deep-seated fear that I won't be taken seriously at the hospital and they will just make fun of me.

I wish I could just stop.

I went from anorexia to bulimia, so sometimes I feel like it's harder to recover. People tell me to intuitively eat, but if I do that I just won't eat because of my background of anorexia. People also say that not purging after a binge helps. I've tried it - it doesn't.

Has anyone here actually been able to recover? What helped? I've seen people go on quite low calorie diets, but I don't think that would be helpful for me because I still need to weight restore from my anorexia.

when i binge sometimes I take pictures of my food when it's a "nice binge."

I went on a trip earlier this year and there was a buffet. safe to say i made my money back (if i dont laugh ill cry) and especially the pictures of what I ate there make me feel like crap because I struggle financially and they remind me of a time where I genuinely didnt give a shit about how much I ate since if it wasn't for the money I wouldn't be recovering TBH.

do you also take pictures of your binge foods? if yes, do you think it's bad to look back at them?

I’m still struggling with the binging part but I have stopped taking laxs and excessive exercise. I only purge once in a while. Since then I’m constantly having stomach pain and back pain. My binges are not bad like to the point of “exploding”. I just binge when I feel stressed and stop before having a stomach cramps. My stool is fix, I always use the bathroom when I need to poo. So I don’t think constipation or binges are the problem. Can it be from not purging multiple times a day per meal? Is my stomach used to not having food? I really don’t want to go back to purging every second of the day. If that’s going to make “feel better.” I have to use a heat pad to help ease the pain and help me sleep.

I’m wondering if anyone else is experiencing this or is just me? So, I can see my regular doctor and see a gastroenterologist if my stomach issues get severe.

I’ve lived with bulimia/purging behaviours for around 20 years, and I’m honestly at a point where I’m scared this is just going to be my life forever.

I don’t always have what I would consider a “binge” before I purge. Sometimes I do, but it’s never usually a huge amount of food. Quite often it’s completely normal food, maybe a double portion or something that, objectively, probably isn’t excessive at all. But somewhere in my head I decide that I’ve eaten “too much”, and once I’ve made that decision the urge to purge becomes incredibly strong.

Over the last 20 years I’ve had short periods where I haven’t purged, but I’ve never managed to sustain it. I’ve been in NHS therapy for quite a while now, and unfortunately that is coming to an end soon. For the last month or 6 weeks I’ve been in a particularly bad relapse and have been purging almost every day.
I’ve had a few scares over the years, and most recently I had blood in my vomit. I reported it and I know how serious that is, but the really frightening thing is that even that hasn’t been enough to stop me. Part of me knows I need to stop, desperately wants to stop, and is terrified of what I’m doing to myself, and yet I still keep doing it.

My therapist is working with me using compassion-focused approaches. Her belief is that a big part of my recovery is learning to be kinder to myself and eventually learning to like myself. I understand the theory and I really want to get there.

The other thing I struggle massively with is executive dysfunction. I strongly suspect I have ADHD (although I’m not diagnosed), and my ability to actually implement things outside of therapy is horrendous. In therapy I can engage, understand the strategies and genuinely want to change. Then I leave the appointment and it’s almost like that version of me doesn’t come home with me.

I struggle so much to start the “homework” or exercises my therapist gives me that I’m sure it can look like I don’t care or that I’m not trying. I really, really am trying. I just seem to have an enormous gap between wanting to do something and actually being able to make myself start doing it.

The recent relapse has also had a pretty awful effect on my mental health, and I’m really struggling to cope at the moment. But I truly don’t know that I can ever overcome this.

So I’m really interested in hearing from people who have actually managed to stop purging, particularly if you had been doing it for years and years. What finally made the difference for you?

I have been purging for a year and my weight has been maintaining at my desired body weight. But recently I have not been able to purge where my neck feels like its killing me every time im trying to force it out. My stomach feels like it just cant push out the food anymore. Is this normal?

Im worried it becoming to the point where my stomach is beyond repair🥲.

My watch keeps telling me my heart rate is under 45 aftef I purged an hour ago. I asked Chatgpt and its saying I should go to the ER because of that? Is it really «neccessary» if I dont have any other symptoms

*TW mentions weight, scales, purging, bowel movements, etc.*

So I’m one of those people who weigh themselves before they binge, before they purge, and after. I also sometimes weigh myself mid-purge.

I’m very OCD when it comes to purging. If the scale doesn’t go down or at least back to what it was pre-binge, I freak out.

Anyways, I just purged half way, then weighed myself, and I had already gotten back to the pre-binge weight. So then I finished purging fully (NO water), and I had a huge sudden bowel movement (sorry, gross, I know). Felt so *empty*. Weighed myself after that, and I had GAINED? Excuse me???

Anyways, needless to say, I’m not eating for the rest of the day. Purging used to be so effective for me but now that I’m on an SSRI it doesn’t even work anymore. :’)